It is 11:51 AM late Thursday morning here in West Michigan. It is 32 degrees and cloudy outside. There is snow on the ground and on the houses today. I am tired and not feeling well these days. Maybe I feel sick due to the lack of bright sunshine. Maybe I would not feel so bad if it was sunny and warm outside these days. I am back to taking Xanax chips during the day due to this feeling of being oppressed in my spirit. I got up this morning around 7:35 AM. Carol had been up since 4 o'clock AM and she was ready to zoom zoom zoom when I got up this morning. She had this morning her Neighborhood Woman's Book Club over for a meeting. I stayed down in the lower level reading from a book titled, 'The Life of Jesus Christ' Part Two Volume 1 Chapters 1-57 By Ludolph of Saxony as the women met and talked about books. Now the Woman's Book Club meeting is over and I am back upstairs waiting to go through Time, the afternoon hours. Last night Carol went to bed real early and I read late into the night from a book titled, 'Reformed Systematic Theology: Spirit and Salvation' Volume 3 by Joel R. Beeke & Paul M. Smalley. I wish I could read a book that would make me feel happy and healed. I have no plans for the rest of the day. I will close to pray and wait for healing. junco