the doctrine of God

It is 7:01 PM Monday evening here in West Michigan. It is 74 degrees and sunny this evening. All in all weather wise it was a nice day.

I have had a up and down day. I think I need to take more Xanax and not half a pill every six hours. I think I need to take a whole pill of Xanax in the mornings and one in the afternoon around 3 o'clock PM maybe 2 o'clock PM. I take a long with my Xanax an antidepressant drug once in the morning when I get up.

So I got up this morning around 7:50 AM. Went upstairs to find Carol feeding baby Nora. I had breakfast and a cup of coffee. I went downstairs took my pills and wrote in my paper diary. I then took a nap and then went to volunteer at our local library used books store The Book Nook from 10 AM till 1 PM. While at the Book Nook I helped people with their purchases and read my Bible/The Gospel of Luke/The Gospel of Matthew. Lately I have not seen anything at the Book Nook worth buying for our library.

When I got home from the Book Nook Carol was sitting outside with Nora. Nora was sitting in a stroller watching the neighborhood. I went in the house and had lunch and took a half of Xanax pill. I next laid down for a nap and got up around 4:10 PM and took a walk. When I got back from my walk Amazon had delivered a book I had ordered back in April 2021 titled, 'Hidden & Revealed: The Doctrine of God in the Reformed & Eastern Orthodox Traditions' By Dmytro Bintsarovskyi [Studies In Historical & Systematic Theology].

There is not much else to report. We got a text from Beth and they are coming home tomorrow and then heading back to their home in Denver this coming Thursday morning.

Last night I do not remember right now. I am sure last night before going to bed I read my books and prayed. Carol went to bed around 8 o'clock PM last night.

Well there is nothing else to report. I have come to realize that I am totally dependent on the Lord for Life for Grace for Mercy. I am totally empty of anything. I NEED the Lord for the ability to live for His glory/service/love. I am nothing.

neighborhood walk
  • Current Mood: hopeful hopeful

Hey I’m praying for you as well praying you’ll have a good week or at least day by day is how it goes for me, right now I’m not feeling to good. Thinking about taking a Xanax myself but it’s about 2-3 hours sooner than I usually would. I appreciate the pen suggestion by the way, I’m going to order a box, the pens I just bought Saturday are just not right. So I’m looking forward to the staples ones. Writing in my journal lately or since I started I have maybe held back from writing down certain things, but like you said just have to not worry about it and let it all come out, maybe that will help instead of keeping things inside. Haven’t read much today haven’t really felt like it, feeling lightheaded and dizzy is one of the things that gets me when I’m having more than usual anxiety. So hopefully this pill will calm my mind, and praying. I’m still praying for you daily my friend, not just once.

praying for you daily
I am also praying for you daily. We have to keep crying out to the Lord for grace/strength/healing.