It is 12:10 PM Monday afternoon here where I do my little dance of death. Spinning around and around on a death cycle. It is a cold gray afternoon. All day I have felt ice flowing in my blood stream. I am also having a hard time staying awake. I understand now why one often finds old men asleep in their favorite chairs. Old men see no reason to stay conscious. It easier for me to close my eyes and remember past events or just dream. I am dreaming my existence away. I know there is no state of unconsciousness in Hell or Heaven. One can not close ones eyes to the majesty of God in the Eternal State.
I got up this morning around 7:35 AM. When I got up Carol was dressed and getting ready to go for a walk with a friend. So I got up and got myself a cup of coffee and sat in our dining room waiting to wake up. Carol left for her walk and I wrote in my paper diary and read the Bible. In the mornings lately I have been reading Leviticus/Old Testament. I am reading along with Leviticus Andrew Bonar's commentary on Leviticus. After reading the Bible and Bonar I read, 'Puritan Reformed Theology' by Joel R. Beeke.
So the morning has gone and now I am drifting through the afternoon hours. Carol left around 9:15 AM this morning to have breakfast with friends and then do errands. Carol is not home yet from having breakfast with friends and doing errands.
Last night Carol and I watched PBS Mystery on TV and then Carol went to bed. I stayed up and read from a book titled, 'Red Pill' a novel by Hari Kunzru till Midnight.
Now it is another day in my own private death flow. Well, I will close to see what comes in the mail this afternoon. There is no way of escape.
" Neither shalt thou take a wife to her sister, to vex her, to uncover her nakedness, beside the other in her life time.
 Also thou shalt not approach unto a woman to uncover her nakedness, as long as she is put apart for her uncleanness.
 Moreover thou shalt not lie carnally with thy neighbour's wife, to defile thyself with her.
 And thou shalt not let any of thy seed pass through the fire to Molech, neither shalt thou profane the name of thy God: I am the LORD.
 Thou shalt not lie with mankind, as with womankind: it is abomination.
 Neither shalt thou lie with any beast to defile thyself therewith: neither shall any woman stand before a beast to lie down thereto: it is confusion.
 Defile not ye yourselves in any of these things: for in all these the nations are defiled which I cast out before you:
 And the land is defiled: therefore I do visit the iniquity thereof upon it, and the land itself vomiteth out her inhabitants.
 Ye shall therefore keep my statutes and my judgments, and shall not commit any of these abominations; neither any of your own nation, nor any stranger that sojourneth among you:
 (For all these abominations have the men of the land done, which were before you, and the land is defiled;)
 That the land spue not you out also, when ye defile it, as it spued out the nations that were before you.
 For whosoever shall commit any of these abominations, even the souls that commit them shall be cut off from among their people.
 Therefore shall ye keep mine ordinance, that ye commit not any one of these abominable customs, which were committed before you, and that ye defile not yourselves therein: I am the LORD your God." Lev. 18:18-30
" Be ye not unequally yoked together with unbelievers: for what fellowship hath righteousness with unrighteousness? and what communion hath light with darkness?
 And what concord hath Christ with Belial? or what part hath he that believeth with an infidel?
 And what agreement hath the temple of God with idols? for ye are the temple of the living God; as God hath said, I will dwell in them, and walk in them; and I will be their God, and they shall be my people.
 Wherefore come out from among them, and be ye separate, saith the Lord, and touch not the unclean thing; and I will receive you,
 And will be a Father unto you, and ye shall be my sons and daughters, saith the Lord Almighty." 2 Corinth. 6:14-18