I do not remember exactly when I got up this morning. I am very sick and my brain is not functioning at full speed. I got up and got a glass of cold water and then went into the living room to sit in the dark till I felt somewhat alive. I finally got up and decided to eat a slice of toast for breakfast. As my bread slice was toasting Carol came home from work. She went to bed awhile ago I have been writing in my paper diary and reading my Reformation commentary on the Gospel of John chapter 6.
Like I wrote I am very sick these days. I have been sick since Christmas of last year. I think I have finally come to an end of a glorious career. It has come time for me to make my final bow. Kiss it all good-bye.
Last night I basically sat in the dark half awake and half asleep. Finally around Midnight I got up and went to bed. Now it is another day to stare into the Abyss. Life keeps marching to the grave.
I will close to feel sick and maybe drop down dead.
"[35] And Jesus said unto them, I am the bread of life: he that cometh to me shall never hunger; and he that believeth on me shall never thirst.
[36] But I said unto you, That ye also have seen me, and believe not.
[37] All that the Father giveth me shall come to me; and him that cometh to me I will in no wise cast out.
[38] For I came down from heaven, not to do mine own will, but the will of him that sent me.
[39] And this is the Father's will which hath sent me, that of all which he hath given me I should lose nothing, but should raise it up again at the last day.
[40] And this is the will of him that sent me, that every one which seeth the Son, and believeth on him, may have everlasting life: and I will raise him up at the last day." John 6:35-40