It is in the death flow 3:50 PM Tuesday afternoon. The sun came out this afternoon which was a blessing.
I did find the courage to leave the house this morning to visit thrift stores and to get some office supplies. I found these used books-
'American Tabloid' a novel by James Ellroy (I already had this novel but my copy was a paperback, this edition I found today was a nice hardback with a slipcover)
'The Hand: How Its Use Shapes The Brain, Language, And Human Culture' non-fiction by Frank R. Wilson
'India Calling: An Intimate Portrait Of A Nation's Remaking' non-fiction by Anand Giridaradas
'Three Delays' a novel by Charlie Smith
'Schmidt Steps Back' a novel by Louis Begley
At Staples Office Supply store I bought folders, pens, paper, ink for our printer and a 2019 calendar for my 2019 diary. I always have to keep track of my existence. We will soon be in the year 2019, so time to get ready.
I have been reading this afternoon the novel 'Hovac' by Tom Kristensen Translated from the Danish by Carl Malmberg. I find reading this novel painful because as I read I am reading the story of a man who is destroying his comfortable middle-class life by becoming an alcoholic. It is painful to see all around you humanity destroying themselves by worshiping false gods. I pray constantly to the Lord to keep me from destroying myself by living a life of unbelief. It is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of a Living Holy God!
Well I suppose I will close to wait for nightfall. One can not escape what is written in the book of God's decrees.
" Know ye not that they which run in a race run all, but one receiveth the prize? So run, that ye may obtain.  And every man that striveth for the mastery is temperate in all things. Now they do it to obtain a corruptible crown; but we an incorruptible.  I therefore so run, not as uncertainly; so fight I, not as one that beateth the air:  But I keep under my body, and bring it into subjection: lest that by any means, when I have preached to others, I myself should be a castaway." First Corinthians 9:24-27