exhaustedI am feeling drained of all life force this morning. I am so very thankful I do not have to go or do anything today. I can just sit and silently wait out this day. There are demands placed on me to perform. I am so thankful I do not have to fulfill any roles in society. I do have to play any societal games. I can just be myself in the midst of a dying race.
I got out of bed this morning around 6 o'clock AM. I got up made myself a small portion of oatmeal for breakfast. I ate my oatmeal messing with our main computer. After messing with our main computer I wrote in my paper diary and then read for morning worship from a book titled, 'The Crucible Of Love: A Study of the Mysticism of St Teresa of Jesus and St John of the Cross' by E. W. Trueman Dicken.
After I read for awhile I started falling asleep so I wandered into our living room and dozed till Carol got home from work. So has gone by my life in America.
Last night I read my books and went to bed around 11 o'clock PM. Now it is another day to beat a drum.
Carol left this morning to straighten out her banking account. She is now off from work till October 25, 2017. Carol leaves tomorrow for the Northwest.
Well I will close to brush my teeth and wait it out. Existence keeps zooming by! There is no way of escape.