I got up this morning around 7:33 AM. When I got up I found my wife reading the morning newspaper in the living room. I made us oatmeal for breakfast. After I ate my oatmeal I messed with our main computer.
After messing with our main computer I wrote in my paper diary and then I did nothing. I was not in the mood to read my religious books this morning. Right now everything is ugly. I am not in a good place these days. Everything makes me sick. I am sick and weary of imperfection. Everything is deformed. Where is perfect beauty to be found?
I left this morning to visit local thrift stores to look for used books to throw on the heap. Carol was packing kitchen stuff when I left because the fellow who is going to remodel our kitchen sent Carol an e-mail telling her how much it is going to cost. It is going to cost $30,000.00 dollars for the kitchen to made perfect. There is no perfection in this life. There is no perfect kitchen. It is all a lie. There are no kitchens in heaven. God is not a cook.
I am all for a new kitchen though since it will make our home more valuable when we have to sell it to pay for assistant living housing for Carol in her old age. I am sure I will die first and then Carol will need money when she no longer can live in this house. Also Carol will enjoy a remodeled kitchen when she retires in a couple of years. And Carol is paying to have the kitchen remodeled and not me. I have my social security monthly check and my Edward Jones account, which is not much.
Like Carol always says "It is only money."
I found these used books today to add to our library-
"Behind the Scenes at the Museum" a novel by Kate Atkinson
"The Prime of Miss Jean Brodie" a novel by Muriel Spark
"Cases Histories" a crime novel by Kate Atkinson
"They Marched Into Sunlight: War And Peace Vietnam And America October 1967" by David Maraniss (I already had this book in paperback and this edition is a nice hardback with a bookcover.)
"Other Powers: The Age Of Suffrage, Spiritualism, And The Scandalous Victoria Woodhull" by Barbara Goldsmith (I already had this book in a paperback, this edition is a hardback edition in perfect condition.)
"Emily Dickinson" biography by Cynthia Griffin Wolff (I already had this biography of the American 19th century poet Emily Dickinson, but but it to put in the library used books store for sale.)
Well, I will close to clean the kitchen and feel sick inside.