I made this book collecting video last night. I am finding making videos difficult because I am not just into books for reading. What I mean is that I read books as a Christian thinker. I can not just forget myself in a book. I am reading books in the light of eternity. I am always asking myself if I should read this book if it is a novel because I should read something that will focus my mind on divine realities. I am God conscious all the time. Even when I am reading a novel I am intensely aware of my personal relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ. I am in Christ Jesus and Jesus Christ is in me. Also I do not want to waste time, because I know my time is very short here on earth. I am to be always ready to die and go to heaven. I feel constantly the pressure of eternity weighing down on my intellect.
I really do not know why I collect used books. I keep buying used books and not reading them. I do read a lot, but why? I read because it is profitable way to spend each day. I am seeking use what time I have on earth wisely. Is it foolish to read books that do not prepare me for the New Creation/the eternal state of glory.
To be completely honest I do not know why my life is the way it is. I at one time many years ago thought I would spend all my earthly days being a gospel minister/a teaching elder in a small conservative Presbyterian church. But my life turned out differently, which is fine with me. God knows what is best for us as we travel through this wasteland to the heavenly Jerusalem the City of God. Life is a mystery to me. As I live out this mysterious existence I collect old used books and wait for the final day, the Last Day.
So once again why do I read secular books? Why do I collect books written by people who do not love or serve the Lord Jesus Christ? Why do I fill my mind full of worldly thoughts? I do not know.
Why do I spend my days writing words that in the end will be destroyed? Why do I keep four online diaries? I live with unknowing. I just try to keep myself from going over the edge. It is all a matter of living within limits and not going beyond the limits. There is security not going outside the line into a state of chaos or living like everyone else in America. There is no good reason to follow insane Americans outside the limits I have set for my existence. (my wife would correct me "I have set for our lives/existence" I am not alone I am married so whatever I go through in this short life my wife goes with me/experiences with me, "let every one of you in particular so love his wife even as himself" Eph.5:33)
" Wherefore be ye not unwise, but understanding what the will of the Lord is.
 And be not drunk with wine, wherein is excess; but be filled with the Spirit;
 Speaking to yourselves in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing and making melody in your heart to the Lord;
 Giving thanks always for all things unto God and the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ;
 Submitting yourselves one to another in the fear of God.
 Wives, submit yourselves unto your own husbands, as unto the Lord.
 For the husband is the head of the wife, even as Christ is the head of the church: and he is the saviour of the body.
 Therefore as the church is subject unto Christ, so let the wives be to their own husbands in every thing.
 Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself for it;
 That he might sanctify and cleanse it with the washing of water by the word,
 That he might present it to himself a glorious church, not having spot, or wrinkle, or any such thing; but that it should be holy and without blemish.
 So ought men to love their wives as their own bodies. He that loveth his wife loveth himself.
 For no man ever yet hated his own flesh; but nourisheth and cherisheth it, even as the Lord the church:
 For we are members of his body, of his flesh, and of his bones.
 For this cause shall a man leave his father and mother, and shall be joined unto his wife, and they two shall be one flesh.
 This is a great mystery: but I speak concerning Christ and the church.
 Nevertheless let every one of you in particular so love his wife even as himself; and the wife see that she reverence her husband." Ephesians 5:17-33