Carol left this morning to do errands. I have been sitting in the living room listening to music and thinking. Lately I find myself remembering events from my Past. I often groan inwardly when I remember how foolish I was when I was a young man. There are times I wish I could undo my past. What really grieves me is that when I was young I was a terrible lover. I failed to love the women/people who were in my life when I was young and single. I still grieve continually over my failure to love. I can only repent of my sins and keep trying to love.
This morning I got up around 7:15 AM. I got coffee and oatmeal ready to make when Carol would get up. I messed with the main computer till I heard Carol get up. I made coffee and cooked oatmeal for breakfast.
After breakfast I wrote in my paper diary. Carol left to do errands. So the morning glides by. I am out of it this morning. I do not know what I want to read today.
Last night I watched professional football and a TV show. I went to bed around 11 o'clock PM, but did not fall asleep till sometime past Midnight. Now it is another day. Well, I suppose I will close to feel out of it. I will try to read a book titled, "The Second Letter To The Corinthians" [The Pillar New Testament Commentary] by Mark A. Seifrid.
" We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair;
 Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed;
 Always bearing about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our body.
 For we which live are alway delivered unto death for Jesus' sake, that the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our mortal flesh.
 So then death worketh in us, but life in you.
 We having the same spirit of faith, according as it is written, I believed, and therefore have I spoken; we also believe, and therefore speak;
 Knowing that he which raised up the Lord Jesus shall raise up us also by Jesus, and shall present us with you." Second Corinthians 4:8-14