I got up this morning around 6:15 AM. Before I opened my eyes I had a stressful dream where I was lost in London England. I could not find my way around London. I wanted to get to a certain place in London, but was completely lost. I knew no one to ask for directions. Nothing around me looked familiar. I was going nowhere. I got up made a pot of coffee and then messed with our main computer. When Carol got up made us oatmeal for breakfast.
Carol left this morning for an all day class at the hospital. After her all day class she has a meeting to go to at the hospital. She told me this morning before she left "see you this evening". It takes an act of faith to say "see you this evening" because everything could come to an end before evening time arrives. Nothing is certain in this life, but death.
After Carol left I wrote in my paper diary and did stuff around the house. I have not read anything this morning yet. I am still getting my self together.
Last night I read my books and watched a television I taped last Monday/Murder in the First. I went to bed around 10:45 AM. Carol had gone to bed at 9 o'clock PM.
I read these books yesterday when not pacing back and forth in my cage.
"I Greet You At The Beginning Of A Great Career: The Selected Correspondence Of Lawrence Ferlinghetti And Allen Ginsberg 1955-1997" Edited by Bill Morgan
"American Smoke: Journeys To The End Of The Light" by Iain Sinclair
"Snobbery: The American Version" by Joseph Epstein
"The Edge Of Night: A Confession" by Frank Lentricchia
I should get back into read "The Dying Grass" A Novel of the Nez Perce War by William T. Vollmann. I have been thinking when Carol is gone for 17 days next month I will read each day large chunks of the novel "The Dying Grass" by Vollmann/an immersion reading experience.
I have coming in the mail this week a book titled, "The Love of God: A Canonical Model" by John C. Pecham. The other day I pre-ordered a book titled, "Paul: The Apostle's Life, Letters, and Thought" by E. P. Sanders.
Well I have loss my train of thought so I will close to hang wet towels on the clothesline. Existence keeps decaying.
" And as Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, even so must the Son of man be lifted up:
 That whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have eternal life.
 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
 For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.
 He that believeth on him is not condemned: but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God.
 And this is the condemnation, that light is come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil.
 For every one that doeth evil hateth the light, neither cometh to the light, lest his deeds should be reproved.
 But he that doeth truth cometh to the light, that his deeds may be made manifest, that they are wrought in God." Gospel of John 3:14-21