As we talked over the phone I was seeking to discern where Steve was at in his spiritual life/spiritual growth.
The other night I was reading a book on spiritual direction and the book had a footnote referencing "The Dark Night" by St. John of the Cross. One the stages of spiritual growth some Christians go through is the stage of purgation.
My Christian friend said on the phone that he does not find the traditional evangelical worship service spiritually satisfying any longer. The fellow said going to church is so unreal/it seems the people around him in church are just going through the motions of worship/religion. My friend does not think biblical Christianity is to be found in the majority of American churches/modern evangelicalism/American civil religion. I do agree that Christianity is not a religion/religion is man made. I see living according to the teachings of the New Covenant as living a normal life/what it means to live in this fallen world. I do not consider myself as being religious or spiritual. I am normal. It is normal to love God and seek to love others/saints/the unconverted.
The problem I see is that some Christians fail to see that there is not one type of God lover. To be simple is that not every Christian can worship God the way a Southern Baptist does or a Catholic. There is not one standard of God living for every professing Christians. Now there are certain things all real Christians hold to like believing the Bible to be the Word of God, living a life of service and prayer, loving others etc. . . There is Truth/a system of classical Christian teachings that all Christians embrace as the Gospel of God. There is true biblical doctrine and there is false teaching/false prophets. We all have to believe that the Lord Jesus died on the Cross for our sins. We all have to forsake our sins and by faith trust the Lord to save us and by His Spirit transform us into His image.
Maybe some Christians when they find traditional evangelical religion to be not meaningful any longer are going through the state of purgation as described by St. John of the Cross below. Just a thought.
[The beginning of the exposition of this dark night. An explanation of verse 1 of the first stanza.]
1. This night, which as we say is contemplation, causes two kinds of darkness or purgation in spiritual persons according to the two parts of the soul, the sensory and the spiritual. Hence one night of purgation is sensory, by which the senses are purged and accommodated to the spirit; and the other night or purgation is spiritual, by which the spirit is purged and denuded as well as accommodated and prepared for union with God through love. The sensory night is common and happens to many. These are the beginners of whom we will treat first. The spiritual night is the lot of very few, those who have been tried and are proficient, and of whom we will speak afterward.
2. The first purgation or night is bitter and terrible to the senses. But nothing can be compared to the second, for it is horrible and frightful to the spirit. Because the sensory night is first in order, we will speak of it now briefly. It is a more common occurrence, so one finds more written on it. Then we will pass on to discuss more at length the spiritual night, for hardly anything has been said of it in sermons or in writing; and even the experience of it is rare.
3. Since the conduct of these beginners in the way of God is lowly and not too distant from love of pleasure and of self, as we explained, God desires to withdraw them from this base manner of loving and lead them on to a higher degree of divine love. And he desires to liberate them from the lowly exercise of the senses and of discursive meditation, by which they go in search of him so inadequately and with so many difficulties, and lead them into the exercise of spirit, in which they become capable of a communion with God that is more abundant and more free of imperfections. God does this after beginners have exercised themselves for a time in the way of virtue and have persevered in meditation and prayer. For it is through the delight and satisfaction they experience in prayer that they have become detached from worldly things and have gained some spiritual strength in God. This strength has helped them somewhat to restrain their appetites for creatures, and through it they will be able to suffer a little oppression and dryness without turning back. Consequently, it is at the time they are going about their spiritual exercises with delight and satisfaction, when in their opinion the sun of divine favor is shining most brightly on them, that God darkens all this light and closes the door and the spring of sweet spiritual water they were tasting as often and as long as they desired. For since they were weak and tender, no door was closed to them, as St. John says in the Book of Revelation [Rv. 3:8]. God now leaves them in such darkness that they do not know which way to turn in their discursive imaginings. They cannot advance a step in meditation, as they used to, now that the interior sense faculties are engulfed in this night. He leaves them in such dryness that they not only fail to receive satisfaction and pleasure from their spiritual exercises and works, as they formerly did, but also find these exercises distasteful and bitter. As I said, when God sees that they have grown a little, he weans them from the sweet breast so that they might be strengthened, lays aside their swaddling bands, and puts them down from his arms that they may grow accustomed to walking by themselves. This change is a surprise to them because everything seems to be functioning in reverse.
4. This usually happens to recollected beginners sooner than to others since they are freer from occasions of backsliding and more quickly reform their appetites for worldly things. A reform of the appetites is the requirement for entering the happy night of the senses. Not much time ordinarily passes after the initial stages of their spiritual life before beginners start to enter this night of sense. And the majority of them do enter it because it is common to see them suffer these aridities.
5. We could adduce numerous passages from Sacred Scripture, for since this sensory purgation is so customary we find a great many references to it throughout, especially in the Psalms and the Prophets. But I do not want to spend time citing them, because the prevalence of the experience of this night should be enough for those who are unable to find the scriptural references to it." The Dark Night" Bk 1 Section 8 St. John of the Cross