The point I want to make is that I know I have only short space of time here on earth or in this present manifestation of reality and I feel a need to tell people about the Lord Jesus Christ/God. Not saying I do not write about other things in my blogs/diary. I do mention my family, music, books and other things in my blogs/diary. I am a human being and experience existence in this physical body.
I mainly write because I enjoy writing even if there is nothing really important to write about. I know my life is really empty of anything mind blowing. I am living a very quiet simple life. I seek to avoid noise/drama/chaos/business. I like being quietly before God drifting through my days. I also know no one is forced to read what I write here. I am sure my boring life causes me to completely ignore what I write each day. Why read all this dribble?
Many years ago I realized I never could be a serious writer because of my obsession with being in constant contact with the Lord. I want to live my life in constantly fellowship with God/the Lord. Therefore such an intense desire for God determines what I write about each day. I just want to write as a lover of God. (Also remember that I sought at one time to be a full time ordained gospel minister. I was educated to be a conservative Evangelical Reformed pastor. I wanted to spend all my days proclaiming the glories of the Lord Jesus Christ to saints and others. One of the most profound experiences I have had is preaching God's Word/Bible. I have experienced the power of the God's Word/Gospel. There are times when I read God's Word and I feel inside me the power of God/the sweet life of God/the love of Jesus/the moving of the Holy Spirit transforming me and drawing me deeper into fellowship with the Lord Jesus.)
" I have manifested thy name unto the men which thou gavest me out of the world: thine they were, and thou gavest them me; and they have kept thy word.
 Now they have known that all things whatsoever thou hast given me are of thee.
 For I have given unto them the words which thou gavest me; and they have received them, and have known surely that I came out from thee, and they have believed that thou didst send me.
 I pray for them: I pray not for the world, but for them which thou hast given me; for they are thine.
 And all mine are thine, and thine are mine; and I am glorified in them." John 17:6-10