Crooked Finger (crookedfingers) wrote,
Crooked Finger

  • Mood:
  • Music:

Being is eternal; existence is temporal

It is now in the flow of reality 5:44 PM Tuesday evening. I will soon wake up my wife so she can get ready to go back to work. She works tonight and tomorrow night then she is off four nights from work.

I have been reading this afternoon “Almanac Of The Dead” a novel by Leslie Marmon Silko. I did not take a nap this afternoon. I am sure I will go to bed early tonight since there is nothing on TV worth watching. Of course I could watch a TV show on our Amazon Prime station.

There is nothing pressing on my mind tonight. I do feel slightly depressed inside, but nothing major. I sometimes hate my Self, which I think is normal. We all I think get sick of living with ourselves. It is a blessing when you totally forget yourself. When you get lost in something like God or love.

Today I was looking back into my Past my days when I was young. Back in those days I had no true understanding of what life was all about. I suppose wisdom or enlightenment comes with age. Now I am 62 years old I look back when I was young and shake my head in disbelief on how blind I was or just plain dumb. I was a prisoner to my flesh/lusts. My lusts blinded me to what was real. I was too caught up satisfying my fleshy desires to really come to terms with reality. I was just a slave to my lusts and not a slave to godly love/Truth. I did not want to look Reality in the face because my lusts wanted me to ruin my soul. I do not know how to explain where I was at when I was young. I date my coming to terms with reality in America when I was working at the Egg Pit. Maybe I am coming into contact with more and more truth Light as I get closer to dying and going to Heaven/New Creation.

Well I got to close to wake up my wife and tell her time to face existence In Christ Jesus.

old diary entry glorycloud


  • the perfect union of love

    It is 2:46 PM Thursday afternoon here in West Michigan. It is gray humid day. During the early morning hours we had a thunderstorm roll through. The…

  • the eternal procession of the Spirit

    It is 1:35 PM Wednesday afternoon here in West Michigan. It is 84 degrees outside and hazy. The West Coast is on fire and all the smoke is blowing…

  • cognitive behavioral therapy

    It is 12:28 PM Tuesday afternoon here in West Michigan. It is a humid hazy hot afternoon. But we have not turned on the central air system. When I…

  • Post a new comment


    Anonymous comments are disabled in this journal

    default userpic

    Your reply will be screened

    Your IP address will be recorded