I am in my mind study looking at the books I want to read, but my mind refuses to read them. These are the books I want to read but can't due to a mental shut down-
"Moral Reflections on the Book of Job" Volume 1 "Preface and Books 1-5" by Gregory the Great
"History and Spirit: The Understanding Of Scripture According To Origen" by Henri De Lubac
"God Is Impassible And Impassioned: Toward a Theology of Divine Emotion" by Rob Lister
"Language For God In Patristic Tradition: Wrestling With Biblical Anthropomorphism" by Mark Sheridan
"God Has Spoken: A History Of Christian Theology" by Gerald Bray
Salvation Applied By The Spirit: Union with Christ" by Robert A. Peterson
"Hidden But Now Revealed: A Biblical Theology of Mystery" by G. K. Beale & Benjamin L. Gladd
"A New Heaven and a New Earth: Reclaiming Biblical Eschatology" by J. Richard Middleton
I think one of the difficulties in reading the above books is that it is not new material to me. I read Christian books to refresh my memory or to have something to meditate on as I drift through my existence. Right now I am meditating on ice and snow. I tell myself there is nothing nonspiritual about just sitting in stillness before the Lord. A time of just waiting on the Lord in mental silence. Usually when I am in these kinds of spiritual states I read Christian Spirituality. But I am not in the mood either to read Christian Mysticism.
Well the morning has gone by and we are now in the afternoon hours. Can't stop the flow of time. There is no way off the sinking ship.