contemplativeThis morning my wife and I got up to around 5:05 AM. We were on the road by 5:45 AM for the Grand Rapids Airport. I dropped off Carol at 6:30 AM at the airport. Her plane for Boston was planned to leave at 7:30 AM. It was extremely painful to see my wife leave me. I am sick with pain right now. What amazes me is that my wife knows her leaving me causes me great pain and yet she still goes. I tell my wife all the time that I could never leave her. I love being with my wife. Carol does fine without me. Weird. I love intensely. I am a romantic. I am a fire lover!
After dropping off Carol at the airport I zoomed back to Holland. Before coming home I stopped and went grocery shopping. When I got home I cleaned the kitchen and then wrote down my pain in my paper diary.
Last night we watched college football and went to bed around 9:50 PM. I might take a nap this afternoon since I feel emotionally ruined. I am praying to the Lord to keep me from cracking up. As I get older I am more emotionally weak. I am not a strong man. I am broken. It is the Lord that keeps me from fragmenting.
Well I will close to make coffee and wait it out. I am trapped.
