Crooked Finger (crookedfingers) wrote,
Crooked Finger

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time looms here like a monster with many heads

It is 7:29 PM Wednesday evening in the flow of my life. There is nothing on TV worth watching till 10 o'clock PM. I am listening to music and reading a book titled, "Time Of Need: Forms Of Imagination In The Twentieth Century" by William Barrett.

There is nothing pressing on my mind this evening. My wife has left for work. My wife went to work early because she is working extra hours.

While I was out today visiting thrift stores I stopped at Staples office supply store to get folders, pens, and paper. Staples was having their back to school sale so I stocked up on materials I use in keeping a personal diary. I love folders, pens, and paper! I have been writing in diary form since 1968. I write all the time. I either writing in the physical world or inside my brain. I am always writing or interpreting my experience of life as a man in mystical union with the Lord Jesus Christ. I am a member of the Body of Christ. I remember these words of the apostle Paul, "Now, therefore, you are no longer strangers and foreigners, but fellow citizens with the saints and members of the household of God, having been built on the foundation of the apostles and prophets, Jesus Christ Himself being the chief cornerstone, in whom the whole building, being fitted together, grows into a holy temple in the Lord, in whom you also are being built together for a dwelling place of God in the Spirit" Ephesians 2:19-22.

I remember years ago when I was single and living in Richmond California I told myself I could write even when I was starving. I mentioned earlier that for years I was sick with a stomach ulcer. That stomach ulcer kept me awake at night so I would sit in early hours of the night writing down my experience of stomach pain. I also remember back in those days of writing under the pressure of a guilty conscience. One thing I have noticed in reading online diaries is that people do not write about experiencing a guilty conscience these days. It seems people can sin against God without experiencing an accusing conscience. People these days have harden their hearts. They have silenced the voice of their consciences. We all should pray for a spirit of repentance. We should also pray for a soft heart. "Beware, brethren, lest there be in any of you an evil heart of unbelief in departing from the living God; but exhort one another daily, while it is called "Today," lest any of you be hardened through the deceitfulness of sin" Hebrews 3:12,13.

Tomorrow is a Thursday. I should get out my spiritual books and read something to feed my soul. It is too early to go to bed.

Well I suppose I will close to drift.


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