I got up this morning around 6:30 AM. I plan to go back to bed down in the lower level when Carol leaves for Covenant PCA. I do not know why lately I have felt so dead to the world. Am I suffering from depression? I do not feel depressed. I just feel extremely tired. Weird. States of being come and go.
I have no plans for the day. I plan to just rest today. Maybe Carol and I will go for a walk someplace this afternoon.
Last night I read "Pigeon Feathers and other stories" by John Updike and watched television. I went to bed around 11 o'clock PM. Now it is another day to go through. I already wrote in my paper diary and fed the birds. I have been reading this morning "Pigeon Feathers and other stories" by Updike. I still do not feel like reading my Bible or my commentaries on the Acts of the Apostles. I am out of it spiritually. I have too much on my mind these days. Maybe I will feel my old self again after our 35th wedding anniversary, which is tomorrow May 19th. When I come to one of those major life events in ones life I tend to be overwhelmed with memories and emotions which leave me feeling exhausted. I feel deeply my Past.
Well I suppose I will close to feel drained.