April 25th, 2021

so cold and lifeless in thy affections

"And the apostles said unto the Lord, increase our faith."—Luke xviii. 5.

Did the apostles need so to pray? Then well may I. Oh! thou great author and finisher of our faith! I would look up to thee, with thankfulness, that thou hast granted even the smallest portion of faith to so unworthy a creature as I am. Surely, my soul, it is as great a miracle of grace that my God and Saviour should have kindled belief in thy stony heart, amidst all the surrounding obstructions of sin and Satan which lay there, as when the miraculous fire from heaven, in answer to the prophet's prayer, came down and consumed the wetted sacrifice. I praise thee, my God and King, this day, in the recollection of this unspeakable, unmerited mercy. And though this faith in my heart still be but as a grain of mustard seed; though it be but as a spark in the ocean; though it be but as the drop of the dew, in comparison of the river; yet, blessed, precious Jesus! still this is faith, and it is thy gift. And is it not a token of thy favour? Is it not an earnest of the Holy Spirit, and a pledge of the promised inheritance? Babes in faith, as well as the strong in the Lord, are equally thine; for it is said that "as many as were ordained to eternal life believed; "(Acts xiii. 48.) "and to as many as believed, thou gavest power to become the sons of God. "So it is by thyself blessed Redeemer, and not by the strength or weakness of the faith of thy people, their justification before God the Father is secured. Precious is that scripture which tells us, that by thee all that believe, whether great faith or little faith—"all that believe, are justified from all things. "Acts xiii. 39. But, my soul, while the consciousness of thy possessing the smallest evidences of faith in thy beloved, gives thee a joy unspeakable and full of glory, dost thou not blush to think what ungrateful returns thou art making to thy Redeemer in the littleness of thy faith in such a God and Saviour? Whence is it that thine affections are so warm in a thousand lesser things, and so cold towards Jesus? Whence that his holy word thou so often hearest as though thou heardest not? Whence the ordinances of Jesus's house, the promises of his scriptures, the visits of his grace; whence these pass again and again before thee, and thou remainest so cold and lifeless in thy affections? Whence that the temptations of Satan, the corruptions of thine heart, the allurements of the world, gain any influence upon thee? Whence that thou art so anxious about things that perish; about any thing, about nothing, deserving to be called interesting; whence so seldom at the court of the heavenly King, where thou oughtest to be found daily, hourly, waiting; and whence, under trials, or the want of answers at a mercy-seat, fretful, impatient, and misgiving—whence all these, and numberless other evils, but from the weakness and littleness of thy love to Jesus, thy trust in Jesus, thy dependance upon Jesus, and thy communion with Jesus? All, all arise out of this one sad cause, my soul, thine unbelief. Jesus, Master, look upon me, put the cry with earnestness in my heart, that I may unceasingly, with the apostles' prayer, be sending forth this as the first and greatest petition of my whole soul—"Lord, increase my faith. "

'Poor Man's Morning And Evening Portion' Robert Hawker
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Aristotelian natural theology

It is 3:42 PM Sunday afternoon here in West Michigan. It is a cold late sunny afternoon. I have been cold to the bone all day. I feel wasted. I think I am sick with something. Maybe I am over tired and need this week catch up on my rest.

I just got up from an hour nap. Carol just walked through the front door. She walked around the neighborhood.

I got up this morning around 7 o'clock AM. Carol was up and she asked me to make oatmeal for breakfast. So I made a pot of oatmeal for us to eat for a morning meal. Oatmeal is a blessing from God the Creator.

Carol went to church around 8:30 AM and got home around 11:33 AM. I spent the morning feeling sick, writing in my diary, and reading from a book titled, 'God In Himself: Scripture, Metaphysics, and the Task of Christian Theology' by Steven J. Duby.

This afternoon I have only read a few pages in a novel titled, 'Wolf' by Jim Harrison. Last night I also read the novel 'Wolf' before going to bed around 11:40 PM.

There is not much else to report. The COVID-19 plague rages out of control throughout the world and the human race is doomed to extinction. So cheer up it can not all be bad. Look on the bright side of things. It could be worse.
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preparing my May 2021 Diary

preparing my May 2021 Diary

'Contemplating God with the Great Tradition: Recovering Trinitarian Classical Theism' by Craig A. Carter

'The Life of Jesus Christ' Part One Volume 2, Chapters 41-92 by Ludolph of Saxony Translated By Milton T. Walsh

'Reformed Systematic Theology: Man and Christ' Volume Two by Joel R. Beeke & Paul M. Smalley

'Wolf' A Novel by Jim Harrison

'Philip Roth: The Biography' by Blake Bailey

"[1] The words of Agur the son of Jakeh, even the prophecy: the man spake unto Ithiel, even unto Ithiel and Ucal,
[2] Surely I am more brutish than any man, and have not the understanding of a man.
[3] I neither learned wisdom, nor have the knowledge of the holy.
[4] Who hath ascended up into heaven, or descended? who hath gathered the wind in his fists? who hath bound the waters in a garment? who hath established all the ends of the earth? what is his name, and what is his son's name, if thou canst tell?
[5] Every word of God is pure: he is a shield unto them that put their trust in him.
[6] Add thou not unto his words, lest he reprove thee, and thou be found a liar.
[7] Two things have I required of thee; deny me them not before I die:
[8] Remove far from me vanity and lies: give me neither poverty nor riches; feed me with food convenient for me:
[9] Lest I be full, and deny thee, and say, Who is the LORD? or lest I be poor, and steal, and take the name of my God in vain." Proverbs 30:1-9
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