December 3rd, 2020

a sudden overthrow of the government

It is 1:31 PM Thursday afternoon here in West Michigan. It is a cold gray afternoon in the death flow. Earlier it was sunny, but now it is just gray cold sky. It feels like it could snow this week.

I got up this morning around 6:30 AM. I got up because I was tired of being inside my head. So I got up to find Carol in her usual place in the living room. I got myself a glass of cold water and then I asked Carol if Trump had declared yet Marshal Law and had arrested newly elected President Biden for treason. Trump has gone insane and I am afraid he will have Biden and his Cabinet killed by the Russians. Carol told me our wifi was down and did not know why. I told her the wifi was down because President Trump had knocked out all communication systems so we could not organize a quick resistance to his planned coup.

Carol told me she was hungry and wanted me to make a pot of oatmeal for breakfast. So I made oatmeal for breakfast. We ate our mush and then we prayed. Carol took a walk after breakfast and I wrote in my paper diary. I am still not in the mood to read my books in the morning. I am tired mentally these days. There is too much going on inside of me and outside of me.

Carol left this morning to do errands and I went to a grocery store to get stuff to comfort my sore soul. On the way home from the store I stopped at a thrift store to look at their used books. I found three used books this morning to ADD to our library-

'Washington: The Indispensable Man' biography by James Thomas Fexner

'The Beauty And The Sorrow: An Intimate History of the First World War' by Peter Englund

'Stranger Than Fiction: Three Stories' by Chuck Palahniuk

Last night I did nothing worth writing about. I did not really do anything last night. I went to bed around 11 o'clock PM last night. Now it is 1:45 PM in the afternoon. This afternoon we are babysitting Josie. This evening Caleb, Emily, Josie, Cora, and their dog Ollie will be here for dinner.

I should mention that yesterday in the mail I received a book I ordered titled, 'The System Of Vienna from heaven street to earth mound square' a novel by Gert Jonke Translated and with an afterword by Vincent King.
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Thursday Reads

Thursday Reads

The First Book of Kings/Old Testament/Bible

'The System Of Vienna from heaven street to earth mound square' a novel by Gert Jonke Translated and with an afterword by Vincent King

'Oliver Wendell Holmes" A Life in War, Law, and Ideas' biography by Stephen Budiansky

'The Eastern Orthodox Church: A New History' by John Anthony McGuckin

'"Beatus Vir" Commentary On The Davidic Psalms' Volume 1 Psalms 1-25 by Denis The Carthusian Translation & Introduction by Andrew M. Greenwell

'The Spiritual Writings of Denis the Carthusian' Translated into English by Ide M. Ni Riain, RSCJ

music: Earth 'A Bureaucratic Desire For Extra Capsular Extraction'

"[1] And it came to pass, when men began to multiply on the face of the earth, and daughters were born unto them,
[2] That the sons of God saw the daughters of men that they were fair; and they took them wives of all which they chose.
[3] And the LORD said, My spirit shall not always strive with man, for that he also is flesh: yet his days shall be an hundred and twenty years.
[4] There were giants in the earth in those days; and also after that, when the sons of God came in unto the daughters of men, and they bare children to them, the same became mighty men which were of old, men of renown.
[5] And GOD saw that the wickedness of man was great in the earth, and that every imagination of the thoughts of his heart was only evil continually.
[6] And it repented the LORD that he had made man on the earth, and it grieved him at his heart.
[7] And the LORD said, I will destroy man whom I have created from the face of the earth; both man, and beast, and the creeping thing, and the fowls of the air; for it repenteth me that I have made them.
[8] But Noah found grace in the eyes of the LORD." Genesis 6:1-8
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    Earth 'A Bureaucratic Desire For Extra Capsular Extraction'

loving immersion into the abyss of the Godhead

"A person who lives as perfectly as has here been described and who offers his entire life and all his activities to the glory and praise of God, directing his mind to God and loving him above all things, will often be moved by the desire to see, to know, and to experience who this Bridegroom is, this Christ who for his sake became a human being and labored in love unto death, who has forgiven him his sins and driven away the devil, who has promised him his kingdom and himself as his eternal reward and given bodily sustenance, interior consolation and sweetness, and countless other gifts according to each person's need.

When such a person considers all this, he is moved by an extremely strong desire to see and to know Christ his Bridegroom as he is in himself, for although he knows Christ in his works, this is not enough. He must therefore do as the publican Zacchaeus did when he desired to see Jesus as he was (cf. Lk. 19:1-10). He must run ahead of the crowd, that is, ahead of all the multiplicity of the created order, since this makes a person short of stature and so unable to see God. He must then climb the tree of faith, which grows downward from above, since its roots are in the Godhead. This tree has twelve branches which are the twelve articles of the creed. The lowest of these speak of God's humanity and of those matters which concern the salvation of the body and soul. The highest branches of this tree speak of the Godhead-of the Trinity of Persons and of the Unity of the divine nature. A person must cling to this Unity in the highest part of the tree, for it is there that Christ is to pass by with all his gifts.

Here comes Jesus, who sees this person and speaks to him in the light of glory, saying that according to his divinity he is infinite, incomprehensible, inaccessible, and fathomless, transcending all created light and every finite concept. This is the highest knowledge of God that a person can acquire in the active life, namely, that he acknowledge in the light of faith that God is incomprehensible and unknowable. In this light Christ says to this person's desire, "Come down quickly, for I must stay at your house today" (Lk.19:5). This quick descent is nothing other than a desirous and loving immersion into the abyss of the Godhead, where no understanding which requires created light can reach. But where understanding remains without, desire and love enters within.

When the soul thus inclines toward God with love and intent above all that it understands, then it abides in God and God in it. When the soul ascends with desire above the multiplicity of the created order, above the activity of the senses and above all natural light, then it meets Christ in the light of faith; it becomes enlightened and confesses that God is unknowable and incomprehensible. When the soul inclines with desire toward this incomprehensible God, then it meets Christ and is filled with his gifts. When it loves and is at rest above all gifts, above itself, and above all creatures, then it abides in God and God in it. This is how we are to meet Christ at the highest level of the active life." pg. 69,70 John Ruusbroec "The Spiritual Espousals"
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