September 23rd, 2020

smoke of dreams

It is 11:11 AM late Wednesday morning in the death flow. It is another sunny hazy Autumn day. A good day to sit and wonder why.

I just got back from picking up a five pound bag of black and tan coffee beans at Simpatico Coffee shop down the street where we live out our small life. Carol left this morning for a Woman's Bible Study and then to watch kids during a Woman's Ministry meeting at Covenant PCA.

I have spent the morning thus far doing the usual shit. I got up around 7:30 AM and got a bottle of cold water. I sat in my chair in the living room drinking cold water with my eyes closed. I woke up around 8 o'clock AM to get a cup of coffee and to write in my paper diary.

Carol left around 9 o'clock AM while I was messing with our main computer. I read this morning some more of Leviticus Old Testament Bible and Andrew Bonar's Commentary on Leviticus.

I read last night till Midnight, 'Here Are The Young Men' A Novel by Rob Doyle. I also have been reading 'Here Are The Young Men' this morning.

There is not much else to report this morning. All is quickly passing away during this COVID-19 plague. Thus far 200,000 Americans have died from this plague.

Well I will close to drift.
  • Current Music
    Thurston Moore 'Rock N Roll Consciousness'

Phoebe Bridgers - Motion Sickness (Official Video)



[Verse 1]
I hate you for what you did
And I miss you like a little kid
I faked it every time
But that's alright
I can hardly feel anything
I hardly feel anything at all

[Verse 2]
You gave me fifteen hundred
To see your hypnotherapist
I only went one time
You let it slide
Fell on hard times a year ago
Was hoping you would let it go, and you did

[Chorus]
I have emotional motion sickness
Somebody roll the windows down
There are no words in the English language
I could scream to drown you out

[Verse 3]
I'm on the outside looking through
You're throwing rocks around your room
And while you're bleeding on your back
In the glass
I'll be glad that I made it out
And sorry that it all went down like it did

[Chorus]
I have emotional motion sickness
Somebody roll the windows down
There are no words in the English language
I could scream to drown you out
Hey, why do you sing with an English accent?
I guess it's too late to change it now
You know I'm never gonna let you have it
But I will try to drown you out

[Bridge]
You said when you met me, you were bored
You said when you met me, you were bored
And you, you were in a band when I was born

[Chorus]
I have emotional motion sickness
I try to stay clean and live without
And I want to know what would happen
If I surrender to the sound
Surrender to the sound
  • Current Mood
    exhausted exhausted