January 15th, 2020

when a man dies, conscience dies not

It is 9:54 AM Wednesday morning here in West Michigan. It is another cold gray day. This morning I feel drugged. I can't seem to stay awake. I just want to close my eyes and drift. Carol left to do errands and visit Pam. These days Pam does not know who Carol is, but Carol still goes to see how Pam is doing. Pam is slowly dying, getting close to day she passes into the Eternal State.

I got up this morning around 6:30 AM. Carol had gotten up around 4 o'clock AM this morning. Tomorrow morning Carol departs for the Northwest. This time tomorrow I will be alone here in this house waiting to pass into the Eternal State.

When I got up this morning I sat across from Carol seeking to wake up to this state of existence. I finally found the strength to get up and make a pot of oatmeal for a morning meal. So I made oatmeal for breakfast and after eating my mush I wrote in my paper diary and then read from Volume 8 'The Works of William Perkins'. Now I am writing in my online diaries and listening to music by the band Dead To A Dying World.

I do not plan to do anything today but write and read my books. I do not see any reason to step outside my cell today.

Last night after the kids left we picked up the house. We watched some television and then read. Carol went to bed early and I stayed up messing with our main computer. After messing with our main computer I read from Volume 8 'The Works of William Perkins' before going to bed. Now it is another to seek the Lord while He maybe found.

Carol did have face time on her cell phone with Beth and Jack yesterday. Last night she had face time on her cell phone with Josiah and Marika.

Well I suppose I will close to drift. There is no way of escape.

Carol & Cora
Carol & Cora
  • Current Music
    Dead To A Dying World 'Elegy'

the foundation of infallible certainty of man's salvation

"Third, we are here to mark and to remember with care the foundation of infallible certainty of man's salvation. For if man is bound in conscience first, to give assent to the gospel and, second to apply it to himself by true faith, then without doubt a man by faith may be certainly persuaded of his own election and salvation in this life without any extraordinary revelation, God's commandments being in this and the like cases possible. For commandments are either legal or evangelical. Legal [commandments] show us our disease, but give us no remedy. And the perfect doing of them, according to the intent of the Law-giver, by reason of man's weakness and through man's default, is impossible in this world. As for evangelical commandments, they have this privilege, that they may (and can) be performed according to the intention of the Law-giver in this life, because with the commandments is joined the inward operation of the Spirit to enable us to effect the duty commanded. And the will of God is not to require absolute perfection at our hands in the gospel as in the law, but rather to qualify the rigor of the law by the satisfaction of a Mediator in our stead, and of us (being in Christ) to accept the upright will and endeavor for the deed, as the will to repent and the will to believe for repentance and true faith indeed. Now then, if things required in the gospel are both ordinary and possible, then for a man to have an infallible certainty of his own salvation is both ordinary and possible." William Perkins pg. 25 'The Works of William Perkins' Volume 8 'A Discourse of Conscience'
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    contemplative contemplative