January 12th, 2020

no coffee in Hell

It is 10:16 AM Sunday morning in the Wasteland. All I see around me is human wreckage. We need to rebuilt the broken foundations.

I got up this morning around 7:24 AM. I got up fixed myself a cup of tea and then messed with our main computer. After messing with our main computer I wrote in my paper diary. I ordered a five pound bag of black and tan coffee beans to be picked up after I picked up Carol at the hospital. Last night I drove Carol to work because of a approaching ice storm. Carol did not want to have to chip off ice from her car after working for 12 hours. So this morning after picking up Carol around 8:40 AM I stopped Simpatico and got a fresh bag of coffee beans. Carol and I have been trying to drink cheaper coffee because we will soon be on a control budget/limited income due to Carol retiring this coming June 2020. I just could not take drinking cheap coffee so I gave in this morning and bought good coffee. We only have this time to prepare for Eternity. There is no coffee in Hell.

When Carol and I got home I made a fresh pot of coffee and cooked myself eggs for a morning meal. Carol went to bed and I cleaned the kitchen.

Now I am writing in my online diaries listening to the new CD by Rusk. I have no plans for the day ahead. I will watch this afternoon NFL playoffs. Last night I watched the Ravens and Titans play. The Ravens got crushed by the Titans. I thought for sure the Ravens would go on to the Superbowl. But the Ravens came out playing awful, they never got a rhythm going. The Titans got the Ravens into a state of total disarray and they could not do anything. It all came down to experience, the Quarterback for the Ravens was just a smart ass kid that got his butt kicked by a more experienced Quarterback for the Titans.

I read last night mainly from a biography titled, 'Marie Antoinette: The Portrait of an Average Woman' by Stefan Zweig. I went to bed around 11 o'clock PM. Now it is a new week. It looks like Carol will not be going out to the Northwest this week, because there was a sudden death in Hannah's family (Josiah's wife) and Joe thinks due to all the activity surrounding this death it would be best if Mother does not come for her annual visit. So Carol is now staying here and not going off to the Pacific Northwest this week.

Well I will close to drift. There is no way of our this jail cell. All that awaits me is execution.
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    Rosk 'Remnants'

God so loved the world

It is 11:43 AM late Sunday afternoon here in the frozen North well Holland Michigan. At least it is not snowing presently. I hope it does not snow at all this Winter. I prefer mild cold weather but not icy cold snowy weather. Anyway I am at a loss what to do with myself since I feel absolutely at of it today. Maybe in my old age I am slowly losing my ability to focus anything. In the end everything is slowly passing away, so why freak out.

This afternoon when our local library opens I have to take there Carol's books from her Woman's Book Club. These books are overdue and Carol is tired of receiving texts from the library reminding her to return these books. After going to our local library I plan to go downtown to Reader's World Bookstore and pick up Sunday newspapers and to look around. I might go to a grocery store on the way home from Reader's World. So this day goes by slowly but surely. The football game I plan to watch today does not come on till 4:30 PM.

I want to now quote something that has been on my mind since I read it in the Puritan reprint 'Moses' Choice' by Jeremiah Burroughs. The other night Carol and I were watching, well Carol was watching and I could not watch it because such subject matter makes me feel sick inside. What the television show was about was about the planets/the solar system. Carol is interest in the planets, the moon, and stars. Personally when I see photos of the solar system I get sick inside. I begin to feel existential dread. I begin to feel in seeing photos of vast areas of space/billions and billions of stars/infinite finite outer space I feel like I am absolutely nothing. I have to exercise faith at the point and believe there is a personal God who loves me and died for me on the Cross of Calvary two thousand years ago. When I told Carol what I was feeling when I watch or see photos of Outer Space/existential dread she quoted John 3:16 "For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him should not perish but have eternal life". We meaning Christians have to believe God created the planet earth for a divine purpose. The people in the television show on the Solar System kept saying that life evolved from water and not from a Creator God. I do not believe in the belief system called evolution. I believe in the creation account set forth in the Old Testament/Bible The Book of Genesis. Also the doctrine of creation is set forth throughout the pages of the Bible.
As a Christian I have a radical different narrative when it comes to why God the Father created the universe/planets/star systems/the planet earth. This is where what I read the other day in the book 'Moses Choice' comes in. I like to quote from this Puritan reprint in light of what I just wrote above-

"And now because God would have further delight, though there is nothing that He can infinitely communicate Himself unto but His Son, yet that He may have such delight as His creature may understand, He makes a world; and the special end why God made the world, is that He might have creatures to communicate Himself unto, in His wisdom, goodness, and glory. And therefore those creatures that are most capable of God's communicating Himself unto are called God's "delight." God rejoices in the habitable parts of the earth because there are creatures that He can communicate Himself unto-and especially His pleasure is among His people, because there are creatures that are capable of His communicating of Himself. Thus you see that the delight of God is communicating Himself." Jeremiah Burroughs pg. 174

God did not have to create anything the Solar System or any of the planets. God determined out of His own sovereign will to create the planet earth and created man/women/humanity creatures that bear His divine image "that He might have creatures to communicate Himself unto" "the delight of God is communicating Himself".

These words of the Lord Jesus in John 17 come to my mind in the light of the above, "I have manifested Your name to the men whom You have given Me out of the world. They were Yours, You gave them to Me, and they have kept your word. Now they have known that all things which You have given Me are from You. For I have given to them the words which You have given Me; and they have received them, and have known surely that I came forth from You; and they have believed that You sent Me" John 17:6-8 "the delight of God is communicating Himself".
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    contemplative contemplative

the LORD thy God hath chosen thee to be a special people unto himself

"[6] For thou art an holy people unto the LORD thy God: the LORD thy God hath chosen thee to be a special people unto himself, above all people that are upon the face of the earth.
[7] The LORD did not set his love upon you, nor choose you, because ye were more in number than any people; for ye were the fewest of all people:
[8] But because the LORD loved you, and because he would keep the oath which he had sworn unto your fathers, hath the LORD brought you out with a mighty hand, and redeemed you out of the house of bondmen, from the hand of Pharaoh king of Egypt." Deut. 7:6-8
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Sunday Reads



Sunday Reads

'Opioid, Indiana' A Novel by Brian Allen Carr

'Moses' Choice' by Jeremiah Burroughs (1599-1646) Edited by Don Kistler

'Marie Antoinette: The Portrait of an Average Woman' by Stefan Zweig

'The Death of Baseball' a novel by Orlando Ortega-Medina
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