It is 10:06 AM Thursday morning here in West Michigan. Outside this morning it is windy, cold, and gray. It is plain ugly outside, dismal weather. But it is not snowing so that is something to stand up and cheer about. We are predicted to rain this week mixed with snow. Nothing we can do about the weather, but pray for grace to take what comes.
I am falling asleep so I better stop rambling and write something. I got up this morning around 6:15 AM. Carol had gotten up around 4 o'clock AM this morning. So I got up made for breakfast a pot of oatmeal. After breakfast I took Ollie for his morning walk. As we walked around the block it was very cold and windy.
This morning I have messed with our main computer, written in my paper diary, and read 'Moses' Choice' by Jeremiah Burroughs.
Later this morning Carol wants to go look at easy chairs for our living room. Carol wants a new easy chair and then I can use the old one. I like sitting in our easy chair in the morning with my eyes closed. I find in my old age I like sitting in a comfortable easy chair dozing. What I do is I sit and close my eyes and focus on The Cloud of Unknowing/inner stillness. I get real quiet inside and suddenly I go into a contemplative state/light state of sleep. I am not really asleep just in a state of darkness/mind space. Anyway we will do that this morning and then maybe visit thrift stores to look at used books.
Last night we watched some television and went to bed early. I mainly read last night a novel I got in the mail yesterday titled, 'The Death of Baseball' A Novel by Orlando Ortega-Medina.
Well since I am quickly fading so I will close to feel wasted.
"Many have the pleasures of the flesh and their consciences struggling together; and many times the pleasures of the flesh and conscience struggle a great while before there is a victory on either side. Sometimes conscience gets the victory, and there is a gracious work upon the soul, especially if God sets on conscience by some great affliction or sickness. Sometimes conscience is overcome, though conscience propounds a better way, and they see, and are convinced of it; yet at length lust overcomes, conscience yields, and they become mere drunkards, hardened in the way of the lusts of their hearts-and this is most dreadful thing, whenever this befalls any.
5. Again, there are others who have had some taste of the ways of God, have begun to make a choice, and have tried the ways of religion, and continued a while in them, and yet come to be weary and tired. Yea, it may be come upon their sickbeds and deathbeds, have cried out of the folly of their choice; and yet, when God has delivered them again, they have gone on in the same excess of riot, and giving liberty to the satisfying of the flesh in the same way, if not in a further degree than ever formerly. What a dreadful thing is this! To all those who are thus deluded in making this evil choice, let me speak a word or two.
First, would you be willing at the day of judgment to be accused and found guilty before the Lord of this, that you esteemed more pleasure to be had, either in sin or in any lawful content, than in all the pleasures that are to be had in God, so as it should be said before men and angels, "Lo! This is the man who did not make God his portion. Lo! Here stands the man who for many years together accounted more good to be had in the pleasures of the flesh than in all the good that was to be enjoyed in all the attributes of God, and all the merits of Jesus Christ, in all the promises of life, in all the ways of grace." What do you think will be your condition when you shall be brought as guilty before men and angels, who all shall look upon upon you as a cursed fool in Israel; when you shall be brought to have the world look upon you as guilty of such a cursed folly as this. How bitter will it be to you? Would you be willing to be in such a condition?" Jeremiah Burroughs pg. 154,155 'Moses's Choice'
"Fourth, would you not be loath that in the time of greatest anguish of spirit and affliction of body, when you shall be crying to God for mercy, that God should take pleasure in your misery, and be so far from relieving you as to mock at your destruction? Now you can laugh, and be merry, and jocular. But what if it proves that this way of mirth and delight in the flesh shall procure unto you God's laughing and God's mocking at you in anguish, and the greatest distress that ever your shall be in? Certainly, if you walk in the way that you are in, this will be your portion. Mark that place in Proverbs 1:24-26 where God says, "I have called, and ye refused. I have stretched out My hand, and no man regarded. But ye have set at naught all My counsel, and would none of My reproof. I also will laugh at your calamity. I will mock when your fear cometh."
Be it known unto you that in whatsoever sin you bless yourself, the more cursed shall it be unto you. What comfort will the pleasures of the flesh be to you when Christ shall come and say, "Was I content to part with the pleasures of heaven, the bosom of My Father, to redeem poor man? And was it not the pleasure of a little meat and drink you could be content to part with for me? Could I be content to part with My blood, and could you not be content to part with your lusts? Were not all my sufferings worthy of enduring those little things you were called to suffer in your life? What, was not all that glory of Mine that I revealed in My Word and works sufficient to show Me to be worthy that you should have given such a testimony of your respect and honor to Me, as to be willing to part with such empty, poor, sleight things, and to suffer such poor little things?"
When God shall bring the saints before you who made a better choice, and you shall see them to be in a most glorious, blessed condition, and you yourself cast off forever, now will this confound you another day? Consider this, you who made an ill choice; now while it is time, consider the evil, the folly, and the danger, the cursedness of that choice that you have made, in that you have chosen rather to give content to your flesh than the ways of godliness." pg. 156,157 Jeremiah Burroughs 'Moses' Choice'