December 21st, 2019

Greet Death "Crush"



Every single day I fantasize
Different ways my body could die
I would kill myself completely out of spite
Wouldn’t be around to watch my friends cry

And I don’t mind feeling lonely
Cause we cut ties, and you don’t owe me

But sometimes I wish you were in my life

Every single day I’m feeling so blue
Sit around the house with nothing to do
The voices in my room remind me of you
I just want to know what you’ve been up to

But I won’t call all your homies
Cause we don’t talk, and they don’t know me

I found love within myself
You found whatever in someone else
Threw away your pictures I smashed on the shelf
I only did it for my mental health
If I were a stranger on the street
Would you even look to recognize me?
And even if you did would you have a clue
That every single night I dream about you?

Every single night I dream about you

So I called to say I’m sorry
And I miss you, I wish you would call me
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    sad sad

the blessings of Abraham

It is 10:24 AM Saturday morning here in West Michigan. It is another cold dry sunny morning. I am once again thankful for dry weather, because I dislike snow weather immensely! I prefer Northern California weather or Mississippi weather than Michigan weather when it comes to the Winter Season. But we have to accept what the Creator God gives us. I am thankful that I am not living in Australia right now because that vast continent is on fire! I predict in the future there will be vast deserts throughout the earth. The planet Earth in the near future there will hardly be any trees or clean drinkable water.

This morning I got up around 7:15 AM. I am thankful I wake up not in the Fires of Hell. I live presently a blessed life and know it will not last forever. I must die and receive a final sentence/verdict. None of us can escape the Day of Judgment. Our lives are short and eternity is non-ending. I got up got a cold can of Spring Mountain water out a ice box and walked over to our main computer to see how the world was doing. I personally do not see Trump being impeached and seeing the Democrats eating crow. Our Government is corrupt and no one in power cares about justice. America is a lawless country.

After messing with our main computer I wrote in my paper diary and then read most of the morning from a book titled, 'Promise, Law, Faith: Covenant-Historical Reasoning in Galatians' by T. David Gordon. Carol got home from work around 8:40 AM and went to bed around 9:30 AM. So has gone by the morning hours. I plan to drift through the day. I am tired as usual. I will read my books and write in my diary throughout this day.

Last night I filmed another video for my Youtube channel and read from these two books, 'Out of Step: An Unquiet Life in the 20th Century' memoir by Sidney Hook and 'The Twilight Of The Intellectuals: Culture And Politics In The Era Of The Cold War' by Hilton Kramer. I went to bed around 11:25 PM last night. Now it is another day to wait for the Second Coming of Christ Jesus. There is no way of escape.

Carol works tonight and then she is off six nights (I think). Tomorrow night we celebrate Christmas with Caleb, Emily, Josie, Cora, and Ollie. Ollie will be us while Caleb, Emily, Josie, and Cora spent Christmas with Emily's family here in Michigan.

I will close to read and write.
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    exhausted exhausted

What I Have Been Reading



What I Have Been Reading

'Moses Choice' by Jeremiah Burroughs (1599-1646)

'Meditation And Communion With God: Contemplating Scripture In An Age Of Distraction' by John Jefferson Davis

'Promise, Law, Faith: Covenant-Historical Reasoning in Galatians' by T. David Gordon

'Prepare For Saints: Gertrude Stein, Virgil Thomson, and the Mainstreaming of American Modernism' by Steven Watson

'Out of Step: An Unquiet Life in the 20th Century' memoir by Sidney Hook

'The Twilight Of The Intellectuals: Culture And Politics In The Era Of The Cold War' by Hilton Kramer

'The Journals of John Cheever' With An Introduction By Geoff Dyer

'Vernon Subutex' 1 A Novel by Virginie Despentes Translated By Frank Wynne

'Will' memoir by Will Self

'The Solitudes' A Novel by John Crowley [Book One Of The AEgpyt Cycle]

'A Ship Made of Paper' A Novel by Scott Spencer
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    tired tired