February 13th, 2019

deep thought

It is in the flow of Time 8:44 AM Wednesday morning. I am having a difficult time staying awake this morning so I better get cooking before I pass out.

I got up this morning around 6:15 AM. I got up because I was exhausted from dreaming or being in deep thought. I often can go deep inside my head focus on a ton of shit. I get lost inside the mental crap if I close my eyes and block everything else out. So am I dreaming or just focusing in on inner shit?

When I got up this morning I found my wife up. I made for us a pot of oatmeal for breakfast. I ate my mush messing with our main computer. After messing with our main computer I wrote in my paper diary and then sat in the living room dozing. I woke myself up to write here in my online diaries. Carol is in the kitchen cooking bacon. Life is drifting by like a broken ship on the waves of the cosmic ocean.

I am too wasted to read this morning. The last book I attempted to read was a book I got in the mail yesterday titled, 'Scratches: The Rules of the Game, Volume 1' by Michel Leiris Translated from the French by Lydia Davis.

Last night I watched PBS with Carol and wandered my cell till we went to bed around 10 o'clock PM. I slept fitfully during the night and now it is another day. Outside this morning it is bitter cold and snowy.

I suppose there is nothing else to report. We live a simple middle class Christian life. I do not know what I will do the rest of the day to keep myself in the land of the Living.
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sky diving

It is 2:20 PM Wednesday afternoon here where we are living out our allotted days. This morning Carol and I went grocery shopping. Carol and I do very few things together as a married couple. My wife do not socialize with people. We do not go to movies or out bar hopping. My wife and I either go grocery shopping or visit thrift stores. We do not take vacations together. We do not sail the oceans blue. Last night my wife suggested we do giant puzzles together. I suggested we take up sky diving together. It might be fun jumping out a plane together.

We were home from grocery shopping around 11:15 AM. We put away our groceries and I left to visit local thrift stores. Carol left this morning to visit her elderly friend Pam. At local thrift stores I found these old worn out used books to give away to the down trodden-

'Thurber Carnival' humor by James Thurber

'Player Piano' A Novel by Kurt Vonnegut Jr.

'The Cunning Man' A Novel by Robertson Davies

'The Best American Essays of the Century' Editor Joyce Carol Oates

The Noonday Demon: An Atlas of Depression' by Andrew Solomon

'Red Earth and Pouring Rain' A Novel by Vikram Chandra

When I got home from my travels it was 1:15 PM and it is now 2:29 PM. This evening our oldest son and his family will be here for dinner. Josie Joy spend the night with Noni and Papa. Well the mail is here so I will close to find out what came. There is no way out so confess.
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