February 10th, 2019

swallow the sun

It is 10:51 AM late Sunday morning here by Lake Michigan. I wonder if Lake Michigan is completely frozen. Outside this morning it is very cold and gray.

I got up this morning around 8:10 AM. I got up late because I read till 1 o'clock AM in the morning the novel, 'Paris In The Present Tense' by Mark Helprin. So I got up made myself oatmeal for breakfast. While I was having my morning meal Carol came home from work. She canceled or going to cancel her trip out to Washington due to the bad weather. Now she is off nine days. This morning she called nurse friends and said she would work some of the shifts they were going to cover for her while she was gone. Nine days is a lot of time for my wife to fill up with activity. My wife has to be active to feel she is spending her time profitably. My wife has to feel day she has accomplished something. I have never been into accomplishing anything. I simply exist which to me is a big accomplishment in this messed up ugly blood thirsty world.

Carol has gone to bed and I have been drinking coffee and read from a book titled, 'Exalted Above the Heavens: The risen and ascended Christ' by Peter C. Orr. I am extremely tired this morning so I plan to doze all day.

Last night I read and watched some television. I went to bed around 11:30 AM and read 'Paris In The Present Tense' till 1:10 AM. Now it is another week to drift through. I will close to doze.
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we are receiving light and love from God

It is in the flow of existence NOW 2:35 PM Sunday afternoon. It has been a super quiet day thus far. I have been reading my books, watching videos on Booktube and dozing. I thought I would something I read this afternoon in the book, 'Fire Within' by Thomas Dubay S.M. that spoke to me-

"We have already noted that St. Teresa's prayer of quiet is far removed from its caricature, quietism. The dissimilarity between the two becomes still more clear when we ask of her what kind of activity is appropriate and what is not. She answers by insisting that attempts to force the mind to be empty do more harm than good. The Buddhist has methods for voiding the mind, but we are not Buddhists. We are not producing a neutral state of awareness; we are receiving light and love from God, and there is a vast difference between a sterile, impersonal awareness and a living, lightsome loving. When God wants our mind to cease operating in its ordinary human manner, He gives a delicate but loving luminosity in such manner that all we have to do is receive. Prayer grows, at His initiative, from our human manner to the divine manner. When we notice the infused quiet, we leave aside discursive reasoning, but this does not mean that there is to be in the future no activity of the mind at all. "If we are not quite sure that the King has heard us, or sees us," says Teresa, "we must not stay where we are like ninnies, for there still remains a great deal for the soul to do when it has stilled the understanding; if it did nothing more it would experience much greater aridity and the imagination would grow more restless because of the effort caused it by cessation from thought." When God wishes us to give up our human mode of praying, He illumines in His mode and leads us into an absorption in Himself. . ." pg. 91 Thomas Dubay
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Sunday Reads & A Used Books Haul

Sunday Reads & A Used Books Haul

'Exalted Above the Heavens: The risen and ascended Christ' by Peter C. Orr [New Studies In Biblical Theology]

'Fire Within: St Teresa Of Avila, St John Of The Cross, And The Gospel ON PRAYER' by Thomas Dubay, S.M.

'Interior Castle' by St. Teresa Of Avila Translated and edited by E. Allison Peers

'Paris In The Present Tense' A Novel by Mark Helprin

'Camp Austen: My Life As An Accidental Jane Austen Superfan' memoir by Ted Scheinman

'The Seance' a Gothic horror novel by John Harwood

'The Ghost Writer' a Gothic horror novel by John Hardwood

'Coolidge' a biography by Amity Shlaes

'Hans Christian Andersen: The life of a storyteller' biography by Jackie Wullschlager

'Disraeli' a biography by Sarah Bradford

'The Rituals of Dinner: The Origins, Evolution, Eccentricities and Meaning of Table Manners' by Margaret Visser

'Killer, Come Hither' a novel by Louis Begley
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1. What book are you reading right now? I am right now reading several books. Too many to mention presently.

2. What was the last thing you highlighted? I do not highlight the books I am reading or own.

3. What do you plan to read next? I do not know what I plan to read next.

4. One fiction writer, living or dead, with which I would like to grab a drink. I like to have a drink with the writer John O'Hara

5. One non-fiction writer, living or dead, with which I would like to grab a drink. Mary Gabriel

6. One poet, living or dead, with which I would like to grab a drink. Frank O'Hara

7. One booktuber with which I would like to grab a drink. Todd the Librarian

8. Emily Dickinson or Edgar Allen Poe? Ralph Waldo Emerson

9. Hemingway or Fitzgerald? Thomas Wolfe

10. Jane Austen or Charles Dickens? Anthony Trollope

11. Harris or Hitchens? neither

12. Stephen King or Michael Crichton? neither

13. Bret Easton Ellis or Chuck Palahniuk? have not read their books but collect their writings

14. Kurt Vonnegut or John Green? Kurt Vonnegut

15. Shakespeare’s poems or plays? neither

16. Adrian Fort or Dalton Gentry? neither

17. Cormac McCarthy or JK Rowling? Cormac McCarthy

18. Hannibal Lecter or Lord Voldemort? neither
"-OR- Lord Voldemort may be taken from Edgar Allan Poe's character M. Valdemar, who died under hypnosis and came back as a squishy mass of rotting flesh, which is what Voldemort was like, until he regained his human form in the 4th book. NOTE: "Vol de mort" means "Flight of Death" in French.Apr 30, 2011"

19. TC Boyle or George Saunders? T C Boyle

20. Good writing or good story? good writing

21. YA or Children’s Lit? neither

22. Irony or humor? do not know

23. Sci-fi or horror? do not know

24. Fantasy or non-fiction? non-fiction

25. Rather find a new-favorite contemporary writer, or a new-favorite old time great? I like finding new writers

26. Sonnet or haiku? do not know

27. Sestina or villanelle?
Villanelle. The highly structured villanelle is a nineteen-line poem with two repeating rhymes and two refrains. The form is made up of five tercets followed by a quatrain.
A sestina is a fixed verse form consisting of six stanzas of six lines each, normally followed by a three-line envoi. The words that end each line of the first stanza are used as line endings in each of the following stanzas, rotated in a set pattern.

28. Spend the evening at a library or bookstore? bookstore

29. Magazine or Wikipedia article? magazine

30. Dictionary or encyclopedia? dictionary

31. The writer I would like to write my biography. Thomas Merton

32. I do/ do not highlight in my books. I do not highlight my books

33. I do/ do not write in my books. I do not write in my books

34. Earliest memory of a library? do not have any early memories of libraries. I do remember in High School visiting often the Richmond City Public Library Richmond California.

35. Last time you went to the library? today

36. Have you ever stolen/accidentally stolen books from the library? No

37. Ballpark: How many books do you own? we own around twelve thousand books

38. How many books do you think would make for a reasonable personal library? thirty thousand books

39. So, there’s sense and sensibilities and sea monsters, pride and prejudice and zombies, etc, how do you feel about the phenomenon? nothing

40. Horror trope you would like to see get more love? no idea

41. Something that you think gets underutilized in sci-fi? no idea

42. Flash fiction: Form of and format of literature, or, it’s just a short short story, dummy? no opinion

43. If you could own one book from all of history, what would it be? the Bible

44. Audiobooks. The same as reading? No

45. Most literary songwriter of your lifetime? Bob Dylan, Joe Jackson and Nick Cave

46. What writer embarrasses you the most because you haven’t read them? do not have any writer

47. What writer embarrasses you because you’ve read too much from them? none

48. What is a biography you are looking forward to reading? 'Ninth Street Women: Lee Krasner, Elaine de Kooning, Grace Hartigan, Joan Mitchell, and Helen Frankenthaler: Five Painters and the Movement That Changed Modern Art' by Mary Gabriel

49. Do you have a dream reading cubby? no

50. Last literary phenomenon that really got your gears grinding? none

51. What was the last piece of literature that changed the way you read? can't think of anything

52. What booktuber have you been watching the most recently? Andrew B
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