December 5th, 2018

"Behold, I am vile" Job 40.4; Ps. 51. 5; Dan. 9.7

1031 7s Henry Fowler
“Behold, I am vile.” Job 40. 4; Ps. 51. 5; Dan. 9. 7
1 What a vile, deceitful heart,
Filled with sin in every part;
But for free and sovereign grace,
Hell had been my destined place.

2 Called by grace these many years,
Rescued from ten thousand fears;
Yet a flagrant rebel still,
Tossed about with every ill.

3 Thus I’m burdened, thus I groan,
And my sad condition moan;
Can a sinner thus beguiled
Be the Lord’s adopted child?

4 Lord, how rich and free thy grace
To appoint a resting-place;
While within, and all around,
Comforts fail, and sins abound.
  • Current Mood
    contemplative contemplative

experiencing unity with God

It is now in the ongoing death flow 10:41 AM Wednesday morning. Outside here in southwest Michigan it is cold and there is snow on the ground. Winter has once again come upon us with fierce vengeance. All we can do is battle with the powerful forces of winter and pray for Spring to arrive before the end of the cosmos.

I got up this morning around 6:30 AM. I remember having a dream where I was crossing the Red Sea with Moses and children of Abraham. "They sing the song of Moses, the servant of God, and the song of the Lamb, saying: "Great and marvelous are Your works, Lord God Almighty! Just and true are Your ways, O King of the saints!" Rev. 15:3.

So I got up and got myself a glass of apple cider and messed with our main computer for awhile. After messing with our main computer I wrote in my paper diary and then had for breakfast frozen waffles. After breakfast I read from these books for morning worship-

'An Ocean Of Light: Contemplation, Transformation, and Liberation' by Martin Laird

'John Ruusbroec: The Spiritual Espousals And Other Works' [The Classics Of Western Spirituality]

'The Works of William Perkins' Volume 6

Carol got home from work around 8:36 AM and went to bed around 9:30 AM. She works tonight and I think also tomorrow night.

Last night I wrote about Carol's older brother's Memorial Service. Dave died last Wednesday due to health problems suffered over many years. I wrote about Dave's Memorial Service, but did not write about what I did after the service. After the Memorial Service I headed home but on the way I stopped at thrift stores to look at their used books. I found these used books yesterday at a Salvation Army thrift store-

'Ideas and Opinions' by Albert Einstein

'The Anatomy School' a novel by Bernard MacLaverty

'The Weather In Berlin' a novel by Ward Just

'The Paying Guests' a novel by Sarah Waters

So it is a Wednesday in the death flow. Last night I read late into the night the book, 'An Ocean Of Light' by Laird. Carol got up around 10:35 PM to get ready to go to work. She left for work around 11:30 PM and I went to bed soon after she left. Now it is another day. I plan to drift through this day. Read my books and hope for sunny days to come.
  • Current Music
    Jeff Tweedy 'Warm'

a book shelf tour

a book shelf tour

'An Ocean Of Light: Contemplation, Transformation, and Liberation' by Martin Laird

'The Philokalia: The Complete Text' complied by St. Nikodimos of the Holy Mountain and St. Makarios of Corinth Volume One Translated from the Greek and edited by G.E.H. Palmer, Philip Sherrard, & Kallistos Ware

'John Ruusbroec: The Spiritual Espousals And Other Works' Introduction And Translation By James A. Wiseman, O.S.B. Preface By Louis Dupre

"to reveal His Son in me, that I might preach Him among the Gentiles, I did not immediately confer with flesh and blood" Gal. 1:16

"But the anointing which you have received from Him abides in you, and you do not need that anyone teach you; but as the same anointing teaches you concerning all things, and is true, and is not a lie, and just as it has taught you, you will abide in Him" 1 JN 2:27
  • Current Mood
    contemplative contemplative

reading from The Philokalia Vol. 1

reading from The Philokalia Vol. 1

'The Philokalia: The Complete Text' Volume One compiled by St. Nikodimos of the Holy Mountain and St Makarios of Corinth Translated from the Greek and edited by G.E.H. Palmer, Philip Sherrard Kallistos Ware

St Diadochos Of Photiki 'On Spiritual Knowledge and Discrimination: 100 Texts'
  • Current Mood
    contemplative contemplative