It is in the ongoing death march 3:18 PM Friday afternoon. It is a cold winter day here in West Michigan. We have gone back in time and there is no longer any reason to believe Spring has come or will ever arrive again. I see sunshine now, but it is all a lie. I am really in no shape to write this afternoon. I feel sick to my stomach and tired. My present physical state declares with a loud voice that I am at the end of the trail.
I got up this morning around 6:45 AM. When I got up my wife was up reading in the living room. She had made a ham knish egg dish for breakfast and there were also pigs in the blanket in the oven baking. I ate breakfast while messing with our main computer. After breakfast I wrote in my paper diary. I read this morning from a used book Carol bought yesterday titled, 'One.Life Jesus Calls Us Follow' by Scot McKnight. This book makes me feel condemned. I constantly struggle with assurance of salvation. Am I saved or lost?
I left to volunteer at the Herrick District Public Library used books store The Book Nook around 9:40 AM. The Book Nook was not busy today so I wandered the store and read, 'Can You Forgive Her?' a novel by Anthony Trollope.
When I got home from the Book Nook Carol was still up doing stuff in the kitchen. I ate lunch and then wrote in my paper diary. Carol went to bed this afternoon because she works the next three nights.
I brought home these used books from the Book Nook to add to our library-
'The Forsyte Saga' fiction by John Galsworthy
'The English And Their History' British History by Robert Tombs
'The Tree: A Natural History Of What Trees Are, How They Live, And Why They Matter' by Colin Tudge
'Edith Wharton: An Extraordinary Life' An Illustrated Biography by Eleanor Dwight
Well, I got to close since I feel sick to my stomach and I feel wasted. Tomorrow is a Saturday. There is no time for weeping tears as I come to end of the street.
" Now concerning spiritual gifts, brethren, I would not have you ignorant.
 Ye know that ye were Gentiles, carried away unto these dumb idols, even as ye were led.
 Wherefore I give you to understand, that no man speaking by the Spirit of God calleth Jesus accursed: and that no man can say that Jesus is the Lord, but by the Holy Ghost.
 Now there are diversities of gifts, but the same Spirit.
 And there are differences of administrations, but the same Lord.
 And there are diversities of operations, but it is the same God which worketh all in all.
 But the manifestation of the Spirit is given to every man to profit withal.
 For to one is given by the Spirit the word of wisdom; to another the word of knowledge by the same Spirit;
 To another faith by the same Spirit; to another the gifts of healing by the same Spirit;
 To another the working of miracles; to another prophecy; to another discerning of spirits; to another divers kinds of tongues; to another the interpretation of tongues:
 But all these worketh that one and the selfsame Spirit, dividing to every man severally as he will.
 For as the body is one, and hath many members, and all the members of that one body, being many, are one body: so also is Christ.
 For by one Spirit are we all baptized into one body, whether we be Jews or Gentiles, whether we be bond or free; and have been all made to drink into one Spirit.
 For the body is not one member, but many.
 If the foot shall say, Because I am not the hand, I am not of the body; is it therefore not of the body?
 And if the ear shall say, Because I am not the eye, I am not of the body; is it therefore not of the body?
 If the whole body were an eye, where were the hearing? If the whole were hearing, where were the smelling?
 But now hath God set the members every one of them in the body, as it hath pleased him.
 And if they were all one member, where were the body?
 But now are they many members, yet but one body." First Corinthians 12:1-20
- Music:Lloyd Cole 'Don't Get Weird On Me, Babe'