October 3rd, 2016

a helpless spectator of cosmic events

It is 11:13 AM late Monday morning in the death flow. Right now I see that the sun is shining. All morning it has been gray and cold.

I am right now extremely tired. Maybe I am on my last legs? I got up this morning around 5:15 AM because I could not sleep. I should have stayed in bed this morning, but I was awake and so I got up to face life.

I have done nothing this morning due to being tired. I can hardly think straight today.

I think I will close and try to write something later when I feel alive and not dead.

  • Current Mood: contemplative contemplative
  • Current Music: Ulcerate 'The Destroyer of All'

the mysteries of mind

It is 8:21 PM Monday night in the death flow. Another day down in the record books. I can not relive this day.

I had a normal day. Time went by like it always does. I did leave the house late this morning to pick up a prescription. While out I stopped at two local thrift stores to search for used books to ADD to our library. I found these two used books-

"The Big Nowhere" A Crime Novel by James Ellroy

"White Crosses" a novel by Larry Watson

In the mail this afternoon I received a book I had ordered titled, "The Village 400 Years Of A History of Beats and Bohemians, Radicals and Rogues: A History of Greenwich Village" by John Strausbaugh.

I did take this afternoon a nap. I do not know how long I slept. When I got up it was 4:15 PM.

I mainly read today the Crime Novel "The Castaway Lounge" by Jon Boilard.

Not much else to report. Carol got up around 5 o'clock PM. She went to work around 7:55 PM. Existence keeps decaying.

I am listening to death metal and wandering the house. I got out to read a book titled, "The Origins Of Consciousness In The Break Down Of The Bicameral Mind" by Julian Jaynes.

I will close to face the darkness.

  • Current Mood: contemplative contemplative
  • Current Music: Gojira 'L'Enfant Sauvage'