January 2nd, 2016

to be very wary and sparing in the use of the tongue

It is now in the death flow 6:22 AM Saturday morning. I am up early because weird dreams drove me out of bed. So I got up to find my wife having morning devotions. My wife tries to read through the Bible throughout the year. I tend to focus on one book of the Bible throughout the year. Last year in my devotions I focused on the Gospel of Luke and The Book of Psalms. Last year I read all kinds of Christian literature. What is important is to read the Bible each day. "The law of the LORD is perfect, converting the soul; The testimony of the LORD is sure, making wise the simple" Psalm 19:7.

So I got up and made for breakfast a pot of oatmeal. I ate my oatmeal messing with our main computer. Now I am updating my online diaries. Existence keeps rotting.

This morning I once again volunteer at the Herrick District Public Library used books store from 10 AM till 1 PM. I do not know what I will do the rest of this day.

Yesterday is a blur. Caleb and Emily came over from Grand Rapids to get Josie around Noon. When they got here Carol and Josie were napping. Carol got up around 1 o'clock PM and soon afterwards Josie woke up to find her Mom and Dad here, she was like to see them. Emily, Caleb, and Josie left for Grand Rapids around 5 o'clock PM.

I spent the evening reading "Holy Wisdom" by Ven. Father F. Augustin Baker. Carol went to bed around 9 o'clock PM.

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When I got up it was 9:30 PM and I read "The Pastor As Public Theologian: Reclaiming a Lost Vision" by Kevin J. Vanhoozer and Owen Strachan late into the night. Now it is another day to prepare to die.

I will close to write in my paper diary and read my commentaries on Psalm 19. There is no way of escape.

"[10] But the day of the Lord will come as a thief in the night; in the which the heavens shall pass away with a great noise, and the elements shall melt with fervent heat, the earth also and the works that are therein shall be burned up.
[11] Seeing then that all these things shall be dissolved, what manner of persons ought ye to be in all holy conversation and godliness,
[12] Looking for and hasting unto the coming of the day of God, wherein the heavens being on fire shall be dissolved, and the elements shall melt with fervent heat?
[13] Nevertheless we, according to his promise, look for new heavens and a new earth, wherein dwelleth righteousness." Second Peter 3:10-13
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the permanent light is the virtue of spiritual discretion

It is now in the death flow 2:54 PM Saturday afternoon. The sun came out this afternoon. Too bad I am not in the spirit to be outside these days. I am in a hermit stage these days. I am sick of the world the dead American world. In other words the world makes me sick. Everything around me is covered with emptiness. It all seems a giant waste modern life in this sin sick world. It always amazes me how men and women pursue things/activities that only lead to nothingness. It seems to be modern man has built this giant machine culture that only in the end produces death. In the end the world will be destroyed and made anew so why be so wrapped up in this culture of death?

I left for the library book nook around 9:40 AM and was home by 1:17 PM. When I got home I found that Carol had gone to bed for the day. I thought she would be up enjoying the sunshine when I got home. Since being home I have basically been writing in my paper diary and reading the book "Holy Wisdom Or Directions for the Prayer of Contemplation Extracted out of more than Forty Treatises by the Ven. Father F. Augustin Baker (1575-1641) "Bendictine writer on ascetical theology and history. He became a RC, entered the Benedictine Order of Padua in 1605, and ordained a priest c. 1615. He worked at Cambrai and Douai, and as a chaplain in England. Of his ascetical writings the most famous to survive in Sancta Sophia, or Holy Wisdom (2 vols.,1657), a collection made posthumously. It expounds the way of contemplation, under the headings 'Of an Internal Life in General', 'Of Mortification', and 'Of Prayer'. . ." pg.122 "The Oxford Dictionary Of The Christian Church" Edited By F.L. Cross."

The library used books store was normal today. When not helping people with their purchases and not talking I read "Holy Wisdom" by Father Baker and "Carthusian Spirituality".

So has gone by my existence. I have been looking at also this afternoon from a book titled, "Spirituality Old & New: Recovering Authentic Spiritual Life" by Donald G. Bloesch. "But there were also false prophets among the people, even as there will be false teachers among you, who will secretly bring in destructive heresies, even denying the Lord who bought them, and bring on themselves swift destruction" 2 Peter 2:1.

I thought of quoting from "Holy Wisdom" but now it all seems pointless. Existence keeps decaying. I will though quote from Guigo De Ponte ON CONTEMPLATION Book Two Chapter Ten: Regarding Anagogical Contemplation and the Book "Viae Sion." What Is Clinging to God? Let the Contemplative Be Fearfully Awed.

"The exercise of anagogical contemplation has three steps. The first is the godly spirit's imaginative clinging to Christ's humanity through devout affection, saying: My soul clings to you(Ps.62:9 [63:8]). The second step is the godly spirit's clinging of discernment in which she discerns but does not separate God from man as she clings in godly love to the divinity clothed with humanity, saying: It is good for me to cling to God(Ps 72:28 [73:28]). The third step is the human spirit's yearning unitive clinging in which she gently burns for God. knowing experientially that one who clings to God in this way is one spirit with him. In this step, as the godly spirit leaves behind mental and anagogical prayers and, inflamed with divine longing pants for the face of her own Author, she is joined to heavenly things and separated from earthly things. With love growing from her own fervor she opens herself to receive and in receiving is set on fire. Then with great longing she gazes wide-mouthed at celestial things and in some wondrous way tastes what she seeks to have. This tasting, moreover, is the clinging, the union, through which the pious spirit enjoys God, in whom she blissfully reposes." pg. 209,210 Guigo De Ponte
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we must have our eyes open to the divine light

It is in the life flow 8:31 PM Saturday night. As I type these words I can hear outside the wind howling.

I had a normal afternoon today. I did not go anywhere this afternoon. I mainly wandered my cell and read my books on Mystical Theology. Existence keeps speeding by!

I am mainly writing to mention the books I brought home this afternoon from the library used books store and also received in the mail a used book.

I brought home from the library book nook these two used books-

"Nineteen Eight-Four" a novel by George Orwell With A New Foreword By Thomas Pynchon Centennial Edition

"Bring Up The Bodies" a novel by Hilary Mantel

I received in the mail this afternoon this used book, "The Quiddity of Will Self" a novel by Sam Mills.

This evening I am not in the mood to watch any more college football or television so I have been reading these books before going to bed-

"Roads To Zion Mourn" by Hugh Of Balma a treatise found in the volume "Cathusian Spirituality" [The Classics Of Western Spirituality]

"Holy Wisdom Or Directions for the Prayer of Contemplation" by Father Baker

"The Pastor As Public Theologian: Reclaiming a Lost Vision" by Kevin J. Vanhoozer & Owen Strachan

Not much else to report. My wife works tomorrow from 8 o'clock AM till 4 o'clock PM. Our lives are speeding by!
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