July 26th, 2015

walking through Death Valley

It is in the flow of existence 7:51 AM Sunday morning. It is another warm sunny day. We still have on the central air system. When I smell the inside of our home I smell old dog and old carpet/a nice cozy smell. The smell reminds me of what I smell when I walk into Bibles For Mexico Thrift store/the smell of old clothes and old bodies/decay. I often wonder what I smell like. I do not use anything to cover up my smell since I take a shower every day and wear clean clothes every day. I have told my wife that if I ever smell like a old man in the process of decay please tell me. I want to smell like I am not here in this messed up world. I want to smell like a ghost/spirit/soul. I want to smell like light.

I got up this morning around 5:35 AM because I was very hungry. I was getting freaked laying in bed feeling sharp pains in the body/belly thinking I was having a setback from my gallbladder surgery. So I got up made myself a bowl of oatmeal hoping once I ate something I would feel absolutely new again/totally healed and ready to face the demonic powers running the American Empire.

I ate my oatmeal at the computer station. After eating my oatmeal I wrote in my paper diary and read from the book, "The Letters of Allen Ginsberg". After reading letters by Ginsberg I went out in our backyard to water plant life/my wildflower garden. I have some new flowers blooming in my wildflower garden and will take some pictures of them later today.

Not much else to report so I will close to feel sick to the center of my being.

  • Current Mood
    contemplative contemplative

he was struck by a vision of human insignificance in all its unbearable pathos

It is in the life flow 5:52 PM Sunday night well it is not dark outside but it is evening time here where we live out our numbered days. We are all going to die so now is the day of salvation. There are no second chances after we die. We die and then the Day of Judgment.

My wife of 36 years just left for church. My wife has gone to church all her life. She was raised in a church and will die in the church. All Christians are members of the Invisible Church the Body of Christ. The apostle Paul wrote in his Epistle to the Ephesians, "And He put all things under His feet, and gave Him to be head over all things to the church, which is His body, the fullness of Him who fills all in all" Ephesians 1:22,23.

My day went by quietly. I mainly wandered the house, wrote in my paper diary and read my books.

I read from these books today.


"'Return to Me' A Biblical Theology of Repentance" by Mark J. Boda

"The Book Of Strange New Things" a novel by Michael Faber

I slept this afternoon in an easy chair in our living room. I am recovering from surgery.

Not much else to report. I have no plans for the evening hours. Tomorrow morning my wife flies out of Grand Rapids for Seattle Washington.



  • Current Music
    Locrian 'Infinite Dissolution'