July 15th, 2015

she had contempt for people who didn't do what they truly wanted to do

It is in the flow of celestial light 7:37 AM Wednesday morning. I got up this morning around 4:58 AM. Since I can not take any sleep aids due to have gallbladder surgery I do not sleep at night. I was awake at 4:58 AM so I got up to face my life. I woke up thinking of the resurrection of Christ Jesus. I believe in the Final Resurrection. I believe I have eternal life because of my mystical union with the Lord Jesus Christ. I live because Christ lives in me by the activity of the Holy Spirit. So I got up and drank coffee made yesterday when my wife got up face IT.

I made a small pot of oatmeal and ate my oatmeal messing with our main computer. After messing our main computer I wrote in my paper diary and then I went down in the lower level (our open basement) and laid down. Now I am sitting here in front of this computer screen writing and listening to the music of Crowbar. Soon my wife will be home from work. Our lives are speeding by.

Last night I read "Mentors, Muses, & Monsters 30 Writers On The People Who Changed Their Lives" and watched TV shows I had taped from the past. I went to bed around 10:50 PM. Now it is another day, we are in the middle of the month. It will be soon be August 2015. Carol flies out to Seattle Washington on July 27th to visit with our son Josiah and his wife Hannah (they have no children) for a week. I will be here alone if I do not die when I have my gallbladder operation next Tuesday. I am not going with Carol out to the Northwest because I am afraid of flying in airplanes. I am afraid all the time. I live in a state of dread. The reason I am able to function is because of my relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ. The Lord Jesus keeps me from cracking up/from falling apart.

When the month of August comes along I find myself thinking/remembering my past because I was born on the 14th of August 1952 Oakland, California. I also was born again on August 1970 Richmond California. The Lord Jesus saved me the Summer of 1970.

I got out my books this morning to have morning devotions but due to being extremely tired I could not read or think clearly. Maybe as the morning progresses I will feel more alive mentally.

Well I suppose I will close to face what comes next. All I can do is pray.

  • Current Music
    Crowbar 'Symmetry In Black'

pre-ordered books

It is now in the energy flow 9:53 AM Wednesday morning. I thought I would list the books I have pre-ordered from Amazon since I have energy.

"The Paul Debate: Critical Questions for Understanding the Apostle" by N. T. Wright

"Neither Jew nor Greek: A Contested Identity" (Christianity in the Making) Volume 3 by James D. G. Dunn

"The Love of God: A Canonical Model" by John C. Peckham

"Penelope Fitzgerald: A Life" biography by Lee Hermione

"Modern Orthodox Thinkers: From the Philokalia to the Present Day" by Andrew Louth

"Theology and the Mirror of Scripture: A Mere Evangelical Account" (Studies in Christian Doctrine and Scripture) by Daniel J. Treier

"Outline: A Novel" by Rachel Cusk

"Identity and Idolatry: The Image of God and Its Inversion" (New Studies in Biblical Theology) by Richard Lints

"Reformation Readings of Paul: Explorations in History and Exegesis" by Michael Allen

"The Unintended Reformation: How a Religious Revolution Secularized Society" by Brad S. Gregory

"Hunger Makes Me a Modern Girl: A Memoir" by Carrie Brownstein

"Psalms 1-72" (Reformation Commentary on Scripture) Edited by Herman J. Selderhuis

"The Dying Grass: A Novel of the Nez Perce War" by William T. Vollmann

"The Epistle to the Romans" (New International Greek Testament Commentary) by Richard Longenecker

"Time out of Mind: The Diaries of Leonard Michael, 1961-1995" by Leonard Michael
  • Current Music
    Baroness 'Yellow & Green'

pink rose

It is 8:16 PM Wednesday evening in the unity of all things IT. I had a normal day, which I am eternally thankful for. I had my ups and downs today, but I made it to the finish line or the pearly gates.

I mainly wandered my cell today and read these books.

"There but for the" a novel by Ali Smith

"Mentors, Muses & Monsters 30 Writers On The People Who Changed Their Lives" Edited by Elizabeth Benedict (reading this book causes me to get choked up and weepy)

"Life Sentences: Literary Judgments And Accounts" essays by William H. Gass

"American Smoke: Journeys To The End Of The Light" travel memoir by Iain Sinclair

I did not go anywhere today. I thought about going to a used books sale this morning, but was not in the mood. So I stayed home and read my books and wandered my cell. Tomorrow is a Thursday. Our granddaughter Josie Joy will be spending the night with us tomorrow night, that will be nice. We always love to see our grandchildren. In two months our third grandchild will be born.

Not much else to report this evening. I am listening to the music of High on Fire and waiting to go to bed. I will close to wander and wait for darkness to come.

  • Current Music
    High On Fire 'Luminiferous'