June 25th, 2015

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It is in the flow of energy or whatever you what to call IT. Outside it is gray and wet this morning. It is suppose to rain today. It must have rained throughout the night. I have been up since 4:50 AM this morning. I got up with everyone us to help load up the car and say my final good-byes to Beth and Lou. Carol left with Beth and Lou for the Grand Rapids Airport around 5:15 AM. I spent the morning getting the cell back into order.

Carol got back from Grand Rapids around 7:30 AM and has also been putting the house back into order. So goes existence.

Not much else to report this morning. I plan to go back to bed sometime today. Carol goes back to work tonight so she will have to sleep today.

Last night we went to bed early because we knew we had to be up early to get Beth and Louisa off. Right now yesterday is a blank due to being exhausted.

I am trying to remember what book I read last. I took a TON of books down into the lower level recently. I buy a lot of used books over a months period of Time. I just remembered that I have not mentioned here in blogland that yesterday we all drove over to Douglas Mich. to visit Well Read Used Books store attached to the Douglas Public Library. As Carol and Beth walked Lou around Douglas I visited this used books store and found two used books to ADD to our library-

"Carthage" a novel by Joyce Carol Oates

"Supreme City: How Jazz Age Manhattan Gave Birth to Modern America" by Donald L. Miller

I think I mainly read yesterday a book titled, "Unpacking The Boxes: A Memoir of a Life in Poetry" by Donald Hall. I have in our library three other books by Donald Hall, "Remembering Poets: Reminiscences And Opinions", "Claims for Poetry" Editor Donald Hall and "Seasons At Eagle Pond" essays.

So the morning goes by. I do not know what the day holds for us. All we can do is jump in and swim.

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    Godflesh 'Pure'

the dreams of the dead

It is now in the flow 2:21 PM Thursday afternoon. Outside right now it is raining. I am coasting through another day. I just finished getting my CD's in order. I collect music CD's. I have too much music and too many books in my possession. I should sell on our material possessions and give all the money to myself no I mean the poor. Who are the poor?

I have not done much today. I am seeking to get back to my normal way of being. I have been reading off and on the book titled, "Unpacking The Boxes: A Memoir of a Life in Poetry" by Donald Hall.

Right now I am listening to a CD I could not remember if I had listened to it. The CD is by the metal group Tribulation 'The Children Of The Night'.

Carol is sleeping right now since she goes back to work after being off from work eleven days.

Beth did call her mother and tell her they had landed safely in the Southwest. Andy was there at the airport to greet his girls.

So existence goes by. Not much else to report this afternoon.

Douglas, MI
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    Tribulation 'The Children Of The Night'


In watching this video I have been wondering how would I as a Christian explain coming to self realization or being awaken. Over the years in writing in my LJ I have often written about spiritual illumination or being spiritually made a live by the work of the Holy Spirit. I do not think these men are describing what the Bible calls conversion and regeneration/The New Birth.


A. H. Almaas

"[1] There was a man of the Pharisees, named Nicodemus, a ruler of the Jews:
[2] The same came to Jesus by night, and said unto him, Rabbi, we know that thou art a teacher come from God: for no man can do these miracles that thou doest, except God be with him.
[3] Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God.
[4] Nicodemus saith unto him, How can a man be born when he is old? can he enter the second time into his mother's womb, and be born?
[5] Jesus answered, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born of water and of the Spirit, he cannot enter into the kingdom of God.
[6] That which is born of the flesh is flesh; and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit.
[7] Marvel not that I said unto thee, Ye must be born again.
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    Tribulation 'The Children Of The Night'

Lord, I am vile, conceived in sin

In this old gospel hymn Issac Watts describes what a person experiences when he is awakened by the Holy Spirit.

Lord, I am vile, conceived in sin,
And born unholy and unclean;
Sprung from the man whose guilty fall
Corrupts the race, and taints us all.

Soon as we draw our infant breath,
The seeds of sin grow up for death;
Thy law demands a perfect heart,
But we’re defiled in every part.

Great God, create my heart anew,
And form my spirit pure and true;
O make me wise betimes to spy
My danger and my remedy.

Behold, I fall before Thy face;
My only refuge is Thy grace;
No outward forms can make me clean;
The leprosy lies deep within.

No bleeding bird, nor bleeding beast,
Nor hyssop branch, nor sprinkling priest,
Nor running brook, nor flood, nor sea,
Can wash the dismal stain away.

Jesus, my God, Thy blood alone
Hath power sufficient to atone;
Thy blood can make me white as snow;
No Jewish types could cleanse me so.

While guilt disturbs and breaks my peace,
Nor flesh nor soul hath rest or ease;
Lord, let me hear Thy pardoning voice,
And make my broken bones rejoice.


Psalm 51 (Old Testament)

[1] Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy lovingkindness: according unto the multitude of thy tender mercies blot out my transgressions.
[2] Wash me throughly from mine iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin.
[3] For I acknowledge my transgressions: and my sin is ever before me.
[4] Against thee, thee only, have I sinned, and done this evil in thy sight: that thou mightest be justified when thou speakest, and be clear when thou judgest.
[5] Behold, I was shapen in iniquity; and in sin did my mother conceive me.
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from slaves of Sin to Slaves of God

I was thinking that in writing about being awakened by the Holy Spirit one not only is awaken to see his or her sinfulness, but also the reality that the Lord Jesus died for ones sins. We are awakened by the Holy Spirit so that we will come to the Lord Jesus in repentance and a determination to no longer walk in the ways of sin, but to walk in obedience to the Lord. We are not awaken to Reality or Reality has awaken us, but we have come under conviction of sin and now in the power of the Holy Spirit we turn away from a life of sin to now seek to walk in holiness.

We read in the Epistle to the Romans (New Testament) "But God be thanked that through you were slaves of sin, yet you obeyed from the heart that form of doctrine to which you were delivered. And having been set free from sin, you became slaves of righteousness. I speak in human terms because of the weakness of your flesh. For just as you presented your members as slaves of uncleanness, and of lawlessness leading to more lawlessness, so now present your members as slaves of righteousness for holiness. For when you were slaves of sin, you were free in regard to righteousness. What fruit did you have then in the things of which you are now ashamed? For the end of those things is death. But now having been set free from sin, and having become slaves of God, you have your fruit to holiness, and the end, everlasting life. For the wages of sin is death,but the gift of God is eternal life, in Christ Jesus our Lord" Romans 6:17-23

Come, Holy Ghost, all-quickening fire,
Come, and in my delight to rest;
Drawn by the lure of strong desire,
O come and consecrate my breast;
The temple of my soul prepare,
And fix Thy sacred presence there.

If now Thy influence I feel,
If now in Thee begin to live,
Still to my heart Thyself reveal,
Give me Thyself, for ever give;
A point my god, a drop my store,
Eager I ask, I pant for more.

My peace, my life, my comfort Thou,
My treasure and my all Thou art;
True witness of my sonship, now
Engraving pardon on my heart,
Seal of my sin in Christ forgiven,
Earnest of love, and pledge of Heaven.

Come, then, my God, mark out Thine heir;
Of Heaven a larger earnest give;
With clearer light Thy witness bear,
More sensibly within me live;
Let all my powers Thine entrance feel
And deeper stamp Thyself the seal.


"But if the Spirit of Him who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you, He who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through His Spirit who dwells in you" Romans 8:11
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the One revealing the glory

It is now in the flow 4:09 PM Thursday afternoon. I want to quote from a book I recently read titled, "The Beauty And Glory Of The Holy Spirit" Edited By Joel R. Beeke & Joseph A. Pipa Jr. I want to quote from an essay in this volume titled 'The Ministry of the Spirit in Glorifying Christ' by Malcolm H. Watts.

"The Spirit reveals the glory of the Son of God, which perhaps explains why He is several times called "the Spirit of Christ" (Rom. 8:9; Gal. 4:6; 1 Peter 1:11). Evidently He sustains a special relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ, but H. C. G. Moule is undoubtedly correct when he writes, "the emphasis of the words here (is) on the work of the Holy Ghost as the Revealer of Christ to the soul."

Should we ask why it is the Spirit who performs this work? Several answers may be given: the Spirit is one with Him in essential union (2 Cor. 12:13; 1 John 5:7); He dwelt in Christ, in fullness and without measure (John 3:34); He is granted to us on account of Christ's redeeming work (Gal. 3:13,14); He was sent by Christ to perform His special ministry (John 15:26); He is responsible for applying to men the benefits of Christ (Eph. 1:17); He manifests Christ's presence in the soul (John 14:16-18); and He is the great "promise" of Christ's gospel (Gal. 3:14).

It is important to observe that the Spirit's work is not, in any way, to enhance the Lord's glory, but simply to throw light upon it, bringing it wonderfully into view. In this respect, it is akin to what happens in the natural world. The scenery in some given place may be very beautiful, and the sun, when it comes out, does not intrinsically change or improve it; yet its light does make a difference, transfiguring it by bringing out more fully its delightful loveliness. As the psalmist says, "With thee is the fountain of life: in thy light shall we see light" (Ps. 36:9).

The Spirit is moved to exercise His ministry. What exactly motivates and encourages Him in this? Since Scripture refers to "the love of the Spirit" (Rom. 15:30), no doubt His own eternal love for the Son is a major factor, and "to have an opportunity of letting His love go forth towards Him, in an exuberance of joy and affection is only what we might expect. He glorifies Christ." In particular, it is evident that the Spirit is lovingly concerned to redress the wrong done to the Son in the time of His humiliation, when, "despised and rejected of men" (Isa. 53:3), He was held up to dreadful indignity and shame (Matt. 26:67; Gal. 3:13; Heb. 12:2). The Spirit has even been the One to vindicate the Lord Jesus Christ (see 1 Tim. 3:16-"justified in the Spirit"). pg. 41-43
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divine illumination in conversion

As I was quoting from the book "The Beauty And Glory Of The Holy Spirit" Edited By Joel R. Beeke & Joseph A. Pipa Jr. I remembered something I read awhile back in a volume titled, "A Spiritual Appeal To Christ's Bride" by Jodocus van Lodenstein (Translated By Bartel Elshout Edited By Joel R. Beeke (Classics of Reformed Spirituality).

"Second, this light proceeded from God, who "hath shined into our hearts." Which God did this? It was the God who, in the original creation, "commanded the light to shine out of darkness."

God must shine into the heart to bring such enlightenment that we grasp the truth and our hearts are made willing to desire the true essence of felicity. Everyone, like the apostle, must pray for this: "That the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give unto you the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of him: the eyes of your understanding being enlightened; that ye may know what is the hope of his calling, and what the riches of the glory of his inheritance in the saints, and what is the exceeding greatness of his power to us-ward who believe, according to the working of his mighty power" (Eph. 1:17-19). Without the illumination of the Spirit, man dwells in darkness (Eph. 5:8); therefore, we are in need of this treasure (2 Cor. 4:7).

The heart is the place into which God must shine; an outward form will not suffice. A person is not converted if his conduct is somewhat blameless before the world or if he is religious merely as a matter of routine. The heart must be renewed. What matters here is the inward and hidden man of the heart (1 Peter 3:4; Eph. 3:16; 2 Cor. 4:16). The mind, the will, and the affections, and thereafter also the entire outward man, must be renewed, illuminated, transformed, and converted (Col. 1:13; Eph. 4:23; Col. 3:10).
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