May 27th, 2015

to pass beyond itself into an ecstasy of union with the godhead

It is in the flow of blood 11:56 AM Wednesday afternoon. A cool windy cloudy day here in West Michigan. I should go outside this afternoon and mow our lawn before it gets hot.

I have had a normal middle-class morning thus far. I got up around 6:44 AM and made myself oatmeal for a morning meal. I ate my oatmeal messing with our main computer. After messing our main computer I made myself coffee and wrote in my paper diary. Next I went out in our backyard and tied our honeysuckle bush to a pole so it will grow UP and not Down to the earth. Carol came home from work as I was recovering from doing yard work.

This morning I left the house around 9:30 AM to visit thrift stores in search of used books to ADD to our library. I found these used books this morning-

"Matisse And Picasso: The Story of Their Rivalry and Friendship" biography by Jack Flam

"The End: The Defiance and Destruction of Hitler's Germany, 1944-1945" by Ian Kershaw

"The Buzzing" a novel by Jim Knipfel

"The Good and Beautiful Community: Following The Spirit, Extending Grace, Demonstrating Love" by James Bryan Smith

"In The Fold" a novel by Rachel Cusk (I have another novel by Rachel Cusk in our library titled, "The Bradshaw Variations".)

"Being Dead" a novel by Jim Crace (Years ago I read Crace's novel, "Quarantine".)

"The Hungry Tide" a novel by Amitav Ghosh

"Red Earth and Pouring Rain" a novel by Vikram Chandra

"The War Of The Saints" a novel by Jorge Amado (Translated from the Portuguese by Gregory Rabassa)

"Family And Friends" a novel by Anita Brookner

"Leave It To Me" a novel by Bharati Mukherjee

"For Kings And Planets" a novel by Ethan Canin

"The Golden Age" a novel by Gore Vidal

"Catherine the Great: Portrait Of A Woman" biography by Robert K. Massie

"The Savage Detectives" a novel by Roberto Bolano (Translated From The Spanish By Natasha Wimmer)

After visiting thrift stores I came home to eat lunch and wait for the end of the cosmos.

Last night I messed with our main computer and read my books. I went to bed and read late into the night the book, "Because I Was Flesh" The Autobiography of Edward Dahlberg.

I suppose I will close to mow the lawn and wait for nightfall.
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labor to live the good and beautiful life

It is in the flow of existence of me here in West Michigan 8:08 PM Wednesday night. I have been listening to music and reading from a book titled, "The Good And Beautiful Community: Following The Spirit, Extending Grace, Demonstrating Love" by James Bryan Smith. I bought this used book at Bibles For Mexico Thrift Shop this morning. I saw this used book yesterday, but did not buy it because I have a TON of books on Christian Spirituality/Formation. But today I went back and bought it because I wanted to read how Smith set forth practically how we as Christians live in End Time Communities or churches. I do not have a New Covenant community to practice Christian discipleship presently. When I talk to people I usually mention we go to Covenant PCA even though I have not been to this church for a long time. My wife is a member of this church so I count it as our church. Many years ago I attended this church for a short period of time, but left because I found it depressing. I do better spiritually outside a church. I found church attendance heart breaking/too painful. I sometimes think my last job broke my spirit. My last job I think in some ways damaged me for the rest of my life. I also think my last church experience damaged me spiritually. But I believe in divine healing. I believe in the grace of God. So why all the fear and pain I still feel when thinking of going to a church building on Sundays. It is sad there is no one to go for answers to my questions. Well I could pray to the Lord Jesus and lay my questions before Him before the throne of grace. In the end I bow to the mystery of it all. I have given up trying to make sense of my life.

My wife and I are living a Christian life. I love the Lord and so does my wife. We both seek to please the Lord in all things.

I did get around to mowing the lawn. Carol got up early and I decided around 4:30 PM to mow the lawn this evening instead of tomorrow. So I mowed our lawn and pulled some weeds around our property.

I spent most of the afternoon wandering the house and reading from a book titled, "The Lord Of History: Reflections on the Inner Meaning of History" by Jean Danielou, S.J..

There is nothing on TV worth watching this evening. So I have been listening to music and looking at my books. Tomorrow is a Thursday. Existence keeps speeding by!

"[13] And the woman which hath an husband that believeth not, and if he be pleased to dwell with her, let her not leave him.
[14] For the unbelieving husband is sanctified by the wife, and the unbelieving wife is sanctified by the husband: else were your children unclean; but now are they holy.
[15] But if the unbelieving depart, let him depart. A brother or a sister is not under bondage in such cases: but God hath called us to peace.
[16] For what knowest thou, O wife, whether thou shalt save thy husband? or how knowest thou, O man, whether thou shalt save thy wife?
[17] But as God hath distributed to every man, as the Lord hath called every one, so let him walk. And so ordain I in all churches." First Corinthians 7:13-17
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