May 4th, 2015

lone wolf

It is 12:11 PM Monday afternoon. Outside this afternoon it is in the 60's and cloudy. It is suppose to rain today and tomorrow.

I have had thus far a normal day. I got up around 5:59 AM this morning. I got up because I was having a weird dream. So I got up and sat in our living room till 7 o'clock AM struggling to wake up. I drank coffee made yesterday and messed with our main computer. After messing with our main computer I wrote in my paper diary and ate a bagel.

When Carol got up I made us oatmeal for breakfast. Carol got up around 8:20 AM. After breakfast I sat in my main study and read from a book titled, "Paul's Divine Christology" by Chris Tilling.

Around 10:30 AM Carol left to take her friend Pam to her 90th Birthday lunch in Grand Rapids. When Carol left I put on my street clothes to get coffee beans and to visit two nearby thrift stores to look at their used books. I found these used books this morning to add to our library.

"The Pilgrim's Progress" by John Bunyan

"Great Esquire Fiction: The Finest Stories from the First Fifty Years"

"The Voice Of Reason: Essays In Objectivist Thought" by Ayn Rand (The Ayn Rand Library)

Last night Carol and I watched a movie on our Amazon Prime. I went to bed around 11:10 PM and read till I got tired from a book titled, "Philip Larkin: A Writer's Life" biography by Andrew Motion. I read also yesterday "10:04" a novel by Ben Lerner.

This morning I also read from a book titled, "After The Tall Timber: Collected Nonfiction" by Renata Adler.

Do not know what I will read this afternoon. I thought about laying down in the dark and sleeping this afternoon. I slept poorly last night.

Well I will close to wander my cell. Existence keeps speeding by!

"[1] Let us therefore fear, lest, a promise being left us of entering into his rest, any of you should seem to come short of it.
[2] For unto us was the gospel preached, as well as unto them: but the word preached did not profit them, not being mixed with faith in them that heard it.
[3] For we which have believed do enter into rest, as he said, As I have sworn in my wrath, if they shall enter into my rest: although the works were finished from the foundation of the world.
[4] For he spake in a certain place of the seventh day on this wise, And God did rest the seventh day from all his works.
[5] And in this place again, If they shall enter into my rest.
[6] Seeing therefore it remaineth that some must enter therein, and they to whom it was first preached entered not in because of unbelief" Hebrews 4:1-6
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Lord, I Believe A Rest Remains

Lord, I believe a rest remains
To all Thy people known,
A rest where pure enjoyment reigns,
And Thou art loved alone.

A rest where all our soul’s desire
Is fixed on things above;
Where fear, and sin, and grief expire,
Cast out by perfect love.

A rest of lasting joy and peace,
Where all is calm within;
'Tis there from own works we cease,
From pride, and self, and sin

Our life is hid with Christ in god;
The agony is o'er;
We wrestle not with flesh and blood,
We strive with sin no more.

Our sp'rit is right, our heart is clean,
Our nature is renewed;
We cannot, no we cannot sin,
For we are born of God.

From every evil motion freed,
The Son hath set us free,
On all the powers of hell we tread,
In glorious liberty.

Redeemed, we walk on holy ground,
In Christ we cannot err:
No lion in that way is found,
No ravenous beast is there!

Safe in the way of life, above
Death, earth, and hell we rise;
We find, when perfected in love,
Our long sought paradise.

Within that Eden we retire,
We rest in Jesu's name;
It guards, as a wall of fire,
And a sword of flame.

O that I now the rest might know,
Believe, and enter in!
Now, Savior, now the power bestow,
And let me cease from sin.

Remove this hardness from my heart,
This unbelief remove:
To me the rest of faith impart,
The Sabbath of Thy love.

I groan from sin to be set free,
From self to be released;
O take me, take me into Thee,
Mine everlasting rest.

I would be Thine; Thou know’st I would,
And have Thee all my own:
Thee, O my all-sufficient good,
I want, and Thee alone.

Thy name to me, Thy nature grant!
This, only this, be given:
Nothing beside my God I want,
Nothing in earth and Heaven.

Come, O my Savior, come away,
Into my soul descend!
No longer from Thy creature stay,
My author and my end!

The bliss Thou hast for me prepared
No longer be delayed;
Come, my exceeding great reward,
For whom I first was made.

Come, Father, Son, and Holy Ghost,
And seal me Thine abode!
Let all I am in Thee be lost,
Let all I am be God!

"There remains therefore a rest for the people of God" Hebrews 4:9

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