February 14th, 2015

American terror

It is 8:31 AM Saturday morning in the flow of existence. It is snowing outside as I write these words. I am not sure if I will go to the library book nook this morning due to the bad weather. I could drive slowly to the library and make it I am sure in one piece. We only live a short distance from the Herrick Public Library. But I doubt if the library will be busy today due to the winter snow storm.

So existence goes by. Carol called this morning. She is doing OK there in the West. I woke up this morning feeling dread. I keep trying to convince myself there is no logical reason to feel anxious. Everything is fine. I am in the Lord's hands.

I got up this morning around 6:05 AM. When I got up it was snowing fiercely outside. I made myself a pot of coffee and a bowl of oatmeal. Next I ate my oatmeal while messing with our main computer. Next I wrote in my paper diary and then I sat feeling freaked inside. Existence keeps decaying. I prayed to the Lord for mercy.

Last night I read and watched two television shows I had taped on our Smart TV. I like taping shows because we can skip all the commercials. I hate TV commercials because they remind me how empty and dead American life is. All around me is living death. I live among the living dead.

I got out to look at this morning if I can overcome my sense of anxious dread a book titled, "Luke" New Testament III [Reformation Commentary on Scripture].

Well I suppose I will close to face the snow storm.

  • Current Mood
    contemplative contemplative

a training method to liberate actors from psychological blocks and penetrate their inner selves

It is 2:04 PM Saturday afternoon. I did decide to go to the Herrick Public Library used books store today to volunteer for three hours. I left the house around 9:15 AM and when I got inside the library I looked for a book titled, "Why Orwell Matters" essays by Christopher Hitches. I found the book and check out along with two music CD's. After that I went down into the lower level of the library to open up the book nook. I had a normal time at the book nook. The book nook was slow due to the bad winter weather raging outside today. I read at the book nook when not helping people from these two books, "Why Orwell Matters" by Hitches and "The Lost Scrapbook" a novel by Evan Dara.

I brought home today from the book nook these used books to add to our library-

"The Quiet World: Saving Alaska's Wilderness Kingdom 1879-1960" by Douglas Brinkley

"The Thousand Autumns Of Jacob De Zoet" a novel by David Mitchell

"Wish You Were Here" a novel by Graham Swift

"Mark Twain: A Life" by Ron Powers

"The Carpet Wars From Kabul to Baghdad: A ten-year journey along ancient trade routes" travel by Christopher Kremmer

"The Oxford Illustrated History of Theatre" Edited by John Russell Brown

I got home around 1:15 PM. I ate lunch and then wrote in my paper diary. I do not have to leave the house at all till next Saturday. My life keeps blowing away. I will close to feel at a loss.
  • Current Music
    Mac Demarco 'Salad Days'