January 21st, 2015

a pelican in the wilderness

It is 11:17 AM Wednesday morning in the flow of life. These verses from First John (New Testament) come to mind when I am repeat the word Life inside my head, "For all that is in the world-the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life-is not of the Father but is of the world. And the world is passing away, and the lust of it; but he who does the will of God abides forever" 1 JN 2:16,17. I try to always listen to the Word of God.

I have had thus far a normal morning. Right now as I look out the window next to our main computer I see it is snowing lightly. I got up this morning around 6:50 AM. I got up made a fresh pot of coffee and then messed with our main computer locate in our living room. We do not live in a luxury apartment on 5th Ave. New York City. When I look around are home I can see Carol and I are not rich. Carol and I both grew up poor.

I have always admired how Hippies and the Beats lived/houses/furniture/environment. I wish sometimes we lived in big house with huge empty spaces. At times I feel cramped in this house. I long sometimes for room to breath. Maybe I am suffering lately from cabin fever.

I picked up Carol from work around 8:40 AM this morning. She went to bed around 9:26 AM this morning. She works tonight and then is off for four nights.

When my wife went to bed I was writing in my paper diary. I have done the usual stuff this morning. I fed our birds and then cleaned the kitchen. I went through my library to find books on being a loner/hermit. I read last night before going to sleep a book I got from the library book nook yesterday titled, "Party of One: The Loners' Manifesto" essays by Anneli Rufus. I collected these books this morning to look at or at least haunt me-

"The Hermitage Within" by A Monk (one of my favorite spiritual books)

"Teaching The Dead Bird To Sing: Living The Hermit Life Without And Within" by Paul Jones

"A Pelican In The Wilderness: Hermits, Solitaries And Recluses" by Isabel Colegate

"Solitude: A Return To The Self" by Anthony Storr

"Hermits: The Insights of Solitude" by Peter France

I have more books on this subject of solitude, but I am not in the mood to search for them in my book collection. I could list a ton of books in my library on the contemplative life/prayer, but some other time.

Last night I watched TV shows on Amazon Prime and went to bed and read "Party of One" till I got sleepy. Now it is another day to wait it out in silence. Well I do have music playing in the background, but I will soon shut down and sit in a state of non-activity. Watch the wheels spin inside my head.

Well I will close. Before I drift off I want to mention one more book that keeps coming to the surface of consciousness-

"The Solace Of Fierce Landscapes: Exploring Desert and Mountain Spirituality" by Belden C. Lane

"And it came to pass in those days, that he went out into a mountain to pray, and continued all night in prayer to God." Luke 6:12
  • Current Music
    Bjork 'Debut'

Blest hour, when mortal man retires

Blest hour, when mortal man retires
To hold communion with his God;
To send to Heaven his warm desires,
And listen to the sacred word.

Blest hour, when God Himself draws nigh,
Well pleased His people’s voice to hear;
To hush the penitential sigh,
And wipe away the mourner’s tear.

Blest hour, for, when the Lord resorts,
Foretastes of future bliss are given;
And mortals find His earthly courts
The house of God, the gate of Heaven.

Hail, peaceful hour! supremely blest
Amid the hours of worldly care;
The hour that yields the spirit rest,
That sacred hour, the hour of prayer.

And when my hours of prayer are past,
And this frail tenement decays,
Then may I spend in Heaven at last
A never-ending hour of praise.

http://www.hymntime.com/tch/htm/b/h/w/bhwmmret.htm

"And he was afraid, and said, How dreadful is this place! this is none other but the house of God, and this is the gate of heaven." Gen. 28:17
  • Current Mood
    contemplative contemplative

all true writers are autodidacts

It is now in the flow of this cold snowy winter day 5:08 PM evening time. Where did this day go? It went down the throat of a beast. I am once again sitting in my cold study writing in my WordPress blog. I do not think anyone reads this blog in WordPress except me, which is cool with me. I just write here for the sheer joy of writing about nothing. If I find ordinary life not that interesting I am sure other people feel the same way I do. What is an interesting life? I personally can’t think of what an interesting life would look like for me. Does any life have to be interesting? Man is a food gather. I use to say myself when I was working 50 hours a week “Life is work”. I use to tell people back when I was working that I worked to speed up the process of decay/dying. I would tell to my co-workers, "Work is a killer."

I will soon have to wake up Carol and tell her it is time to face the time clock.

I had a super quiet day. I mainly read today the book titled, “Party of One: The Loners’ Manifesto” by Anneli Rufus. This evening I started reading again, “Watergate” a novel by Thomas Mallon.

In the mail today I received a CD by the music group Psychic Ills titled, ‘One Track Mind’.

This afternoon I listened/watched an interview with the music band/rock band Sleather-Kinney. I received in the mail this week the new Sleather-Kinney record, ‘No Cities To Love’. I have been listening to the music of Sleather-Kinney for many years. I have all their records in my music library.

interview with Sleather-Kinney
http://www.npr.org/event/music/378668756/we-cant-just-settle-broad-city-meets-sleater-kinney

There is nothing on TV tonight to watch so I might go to be early and read till I get sleepy. Tomorrow is a Thursday in the flow. I suppose I will close to wait for night fall.

Bjork has a new album coming out in March. I got out today my Bjork CD’s to listen to when in a correct mood. Also Leviathan and The Dodos have records coming out this year.

an interview with Bjork
http://pitchfork.com/features/interviews/
  • Current Music
    Bjork 'Vespertine'