January 14th, 2015

doing battle against the hulking, terrorizing demons of ordinary life

It is 10:46 AM Wednesday in the divine flow of Now. It is 6 degrees today here in West Michigan. We are going through a cold spell right now. It is suppose to warm up by the weekend. Spring is just around the corner.

My wife left this morning to look at baby clothes. Next month my wife flies to Arizona to visit Andy, Bethany, and baby Louisa for a week. Last night we skyped Beth and Lou. Lou is going on 10 months old. She says Da Da now and Ma Ma. Cute. Carol likes buying baby clothes for our granddaughters.

I got up this morning around 7:46 AM. Carol was already up reading her Bible in the living room. I made us for breakfast a pot of oatmeal. After breakfast I wrote in my paper diary and messed with our main computer. I next made us a pizza for lunch. So existence keeps flowing by. I am still out of it. I am tired inwardly.

Last night I watched television with my wife and went to bed around 11 o'clock PM. Do not know what time my wife went to bed. Yesterday she slept all day and got up around six o'clock PM. When she got up I was sitting in the dark in the living room with my eyes closed waiting it out.

I mainly read yesterday when not lost in space a novel titled, "Almanac Of The Dead" by Leslie Marmon Silko.

Well there is not much else to report. Existence keeps flowing by. No way out.

"[1] The fool hath said in his heart, There is no God. They are corrupt, they have done abominable works, there is none that doeth good.
[2] The LORD looked down from heaven upon the children of men, to see if there were any that did understand, and seek God.
[3] They are all gone aside, they are all together become filthy: there is none that doeth good, no, not one.
[4] Have all the workers of iniquity no knowledge? who eat up my people as they eat bread, and call not upon the LORD.
[5] There were they in great fear: for God is in the generation of the righteous.
[6] Ye have shamed the counsel of the poor, because the LORD is his refuge.
[7] Oh that the salvation of Israel were come out of Zion! when the LORD bringeth back the captivity of his people, Jacob shall rejoice, and Israel shall be glad." Psalm 14:1-7
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in thrall to a sense of the absurd

It is 4:29 PM Wednesday early evening here in the ice house. The day has gone by like a block of ice on a ice river. I have been cold to the bone for days. My hands feel like blocks of ice. My bones are covered with ice. No place to get warm so I stand in the cold waiting for the warmth of the New Creation.

Carol my dear wife has been sleeping all afternoon. What can one do when all there is ice, but go to bed and dream of sunshine.

I tried taking a nap, but failed. Before trying to get warm in my bed I read some of the book “The Georgetown Set: Friends and Rivals in Cold War Washington” by Gregg Herken.

Carol was gone morning shopping. She got home around Noon from her wanderings. She decided not to go looking at baby clothes, but went to a grocery store. It always amazes me when we go to a grocery store and come home with nothing to eat. Weird.

Since I am totally out of it these days I am at a complete lost what to do most of the time. I do not know what is wrong with me these days. Something is not right inside of me. Maybe winter has gotten to me. I am tired of feeling cold and seeing snow.

No plans for the evening hours tonight. I have no real plans for the rest of my life to be perfectly honest. I am waiting it out. Well I will close to feel cold.

"[1] There were present at that season some that told him of the Galilaeans, whose blood Pilate had mingled with their sacrifices.
[2] And Jesus answering said unto them, Suppose ye that these Galilaeans were sinners above all the Galilaeans, because they suffered such things?
[3] I tell you, Nay: but, except ye repent, ye shall all likewise perish.
[4] Or those eighteen, upon whom the tower in Siloam fell, and slew them, think ye that they were sinners above all men that dwelt in Jerusalem?
[5] I tell you, Nay: but, except ye repent, ye shall all likewise perish." Luke 13:1-5
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Repent! ’tis the voice of Jesus

Repent! ’tis the voice of Jesus
Now sounding in your ear;
The message of God rings loud and clear,
Now seek Him, for He is near.


Repent! and be ye saved,
Repent! and be ye saved,
Repent! and be ye saved,
Repent! and be ye saved.

Repent! while the Lord invites you;
Before the Savior fall;
The wages of sin is death to all
Who heed not the Gospel call.


Repent! while the Holy Spirit
Is striving with your soul;
The burden of sin on Jesus roll,
Surrender to His control.


Repent! for the days are flying;
The final hour draws nigh;
No pleasure have I, saith God on high,
In seeing the wicked die.


Repent! for He made atonement;
He took the sinner’s place;
O turn to the Lord, and seek His face,
And trust in His saving grace.



"I tell you, Nay: but, except ye repent, ye shall all likewise perish." Luke 13:3
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