January 8th, 2015

he let out a great sigh seeing the moon rise over the sea like a wheel of cheese

It is 10:27 AM Thursday late morning in the history of the old creation. It always amazes me to see the minutes tick away. We can not stop the clock/Time. We are completely and totally unable to stop the flow of Time. Time just carries us to the end. We are here but a moment compared to the Eternal State/the Everlasting State.

Carol and I went grocery shopping when she got off work this morning. Carol wanted to go to the store this morning because we are going to get hit by a severe winter storm today and tomorrow. Right now Carol is skyping our daughter Beth and her baby Louisa our granddaughter. So goes Time.

I have no plans for the day ahead of me. I am still out of it. All I can do is wait out this sluggish mental state. Yesterday I absolute did nothing. Last night I decided to watch shows on our Amazon Prime channel. I went to bed around 10:55 PM. I got up this morning around 7:30 AM. I am always aware of Time. I am a time keeper or tracker.

I am still reading when not lost in thought the book, "The Gray Notebook" by Josep Pla.

I suppose I will close. I fed the birds after we put away the groceries. I will close to write in my paper diary.

"[14] And as Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, even so must the Son of man be lifted up:
[15] That whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have eternal life.
[16] For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." John 3:14-16
  • Current Music
    Caribou "Our Love"


I am in my mind study looking at the books I want to read, but my mind refuses to read them. These are the books I want to read but can't due to a mental shut down-

"Moral Reflections on the Book of Job" Volume 1 "Preface and Books 1-5" by Gregory the Great

"History and Spirit: The Understanding Of Scripture According To Origen" by Henri De Lubac

"God Is Impassible And Impassioned: Toward a Theology of Divine Emotion" by Rob Lister

"Language For God In Patristic Tradition: Wrestling With Biblical Anthropomorphism" by Mark Sheridan

"God Has Spoken: A History Of Christian Theology" by Gerald Bray

Salvation Applied By The Spirit: Union with Christ" by Robert A. Peterson

"Hidden But Now Revealed: A Biblical Theology of Mystery" by G. K. Beale & Benjamin L. Gladd

"A New Heaven and a New Earth: Reclaiming Biblical Eschatology" by J. Richard Middleton

I think one of the difficulties in reading the above books is that it is not new material to me. I read Christian books to refresh my memory or to have something to meditate on as I drift through my existence. Right now I am meditating on ice and snow. I tell myself there is nothing nonspiritual about just sitting in stillness before the Lord. A time of just waiting on the Lord in mental silence. Usually when I am in these kinds of spiritual states I read Christian Spirituality. But I am not in the mood either to read Christian Mysticism.

Well the morning has gone by and we are now in the afternoon hours. Can't stop the flow of time. There is no way off the sinking ship.
  • Current Mood
    contemplative contemplative

Peter Murphy "Subway"


It's like there's a straight way you know, you know
I've told you before it's as thin as ice
As thin as the razor snow
Don't freeze in the snow
Don't bake in the heat
I'll be your breath
There's a place where we can meet
Use me
Don't sleep in the subway
Don't sleep in the pouring rain

By my voice in my midnight mediation
When I wake, be my heart's floatation
Come and fill, come and fill from the overflow
Come and play, come and play me like a bird

Don't sleep in the subway
I'm needing you well - I
I feel you, you're closing down yeah
Get close, talk right through me
Get close, keep tight with me
If you fall now it could be forever
I'm telling you the line is thin now
I've told you before this hate is a sin
Empty out for the overflow
Let love begin

There's a place where we can meet
  • Current Mood
    contemplative contemplative

the bus of dreams

It is 3:57 PM Thursday late afternoon. Outside we are having a winter blizzard right now. Ugly weather. I did get brave this morning and visited two local thrift stores to look at their used books. I found these used books today-

"The Bus Of Dreams" Stories by Mary Morris

"Elizabeth And After" a novel by Matt Cohen

"John James Aububon: The Making Of An American" biography by Richard Rhodes

"Memories of John Lennon" edited and introduced by Yoko Ono

"Secrets Of The Tomb: Skull And Bones, The Ivy League, And The Hidden Paths Of Power" by Alexandra Robbins

I have done nothing this afternoon. I am out of it.
  • Current Music
    Earth "Primitive And Deadly"