December 31st, 2014

riffs riding on desert-doom grooves

It is 7:51 AM Wednesday morning in the flow of my life here in Holland Michigan. It is the last morning of the Year 2014. Tomorrow it will be January 1, 2015. Will I see tomorrow? The Lord Jesus could be coming back any moment. We are in the End Times. It will soon be over.

I am sitting here in front of our new computer writing words expecting my wife to call me any moment to come pick her up when she has finished her night shift as a professional nurse. My wife has been a nurse for 40 years. Carol and I have been married 35 years. Carol and I are growing old together. I expect my wife to be at my bedside when I am dying. I will love my wife forever and ever. My love for my wife will never die. My love for the Lord Jesus will never die. I will love God the Father, God the Son and God the Holy Spirit forever and ever. I will live forever in a state of holy love. What grieves me is how little I love my heavenly Father-my Lord and the Holy Spirit. How little I love my wife, my children/mates/grandchildren/humanity. It pains me how little love is in my heart. There is too much self. I want to love.

So here I sit on a cold winter day. It is 17 degrees outside this morning. It has been snowing lightly this week. I hope it is a mild winter this year. We will see what the month of January brings us in the way of snow.

I got up this morning around 7 o'clock AM. I made a pot of coffee and came to our main computer to look at stuff.

Last night I watched television and went to bed around 11 o'clock PM. Existence keeps flowing by. Well I will close to wait for my wife to call me to tell me she is ready to come home.

"[14] For this cause I bow my knees unto the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ,
[15] Of whom the whole family in heaven and earth is named,
[16] That he would grant you, according to the riches of his glory, to be strengthened with might by his Spirit in the inner man;
[17] That Christ may dwell in your hearts by faith; that ye, being rooted and grounded in love,
[18] May be able to comprehend with all saints what is the breadth, and length, and depth, and height;
[19] And to know the love of Christ, which passeth knowledge, that ye might be filled with all the fulness of God.
[20] Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us,
[21] Unto him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus throughout all ages, world without end. Amen." Ephesians 3:14-21
  • Current Music
    Wo Fat 'The Conjuring'

Answer for question 4174.

If you won the lottery, what three things would you buy first? Would you give any to charity? Would you take the money all at once or get it in installments?
If I won the lottery I would buy these three things first.

1. buy me new car
2. buy a second home for our book collection
3. build a meeting house for contemplative Christian worshipers near where we live

I would give some of the money to fed the hungry in our local community.

I would take the money in a lump sum.

I have never bought lottery tickets. I believe as a Christian we come into the world with nothing and we leave the world with nothing. We all must face the divine Judge on the Last Day and give an account of our lives. If I was to win the lottery and had millions of dollars I know I would have to answer to God and how we spent those millions.

Also does not buying lottery tickets express that you are not happy with your lot in life. Should we not be content with what the Lord has chosen to bestow on us? Will millions of dollars make us happy? As a Christian I know only knowing the Lord Jesus brings true and lasting happiness.

"[18] And a certain ruler asked him, saying, Good Master, what shall I do to inherit eternal life?
[19] And Jesus said unto him, Why callest thou me good? none is good, save one, that is, God.
[20] Thou knowest the commandments, Do not commit adultery, Do not kill, Do not steal, Do not bear false witness, Honour thy father and thy mother.
[21] And he said, All these have I kept from my youth up.
[22] Now when Jesus heard these things, he said unto him, Yet lackest thou one thing: sell all that thou hast, and distribute unto the poor, and thou shalt have treasure in heaven: and come, follow me.
[23] And when he heard this, he was very sorrowful: for he was very rich.
[24] And when Jesus saw that he was very sorrowful, he said, How hardly shall they that have riches enter into the kingdom of God!
[25] For it is easier for a camel to go through a needle's eye, than for a rich man to enter into the kingdom of God.
[26] And they that heard it said, Who then can be saved?
[27] And he said, The things which are impossible with men are possible with God.
[28] Then Peter said, Lo, we have left all, and followed thee.
[29] And he said unto them, Verily I say unto you, There is no man that hath left house, or parents, or brethren, or wife, or children, for the kingdom of God's sake,
[30] Who shall not receive manifold more in this present time, and in the world to come life everlasting." Luke 18:18-30
  • Current Music
    Wo Fat 'The Conjuring'

More love to Thee, O Christ

More love to Thee, O Christ, more love to Thee!
Hear Thou the prayer I make on bended knee.
This is my earnest plea: More love, O Christ, to Thee;
More love to Thee, more love to Thee!

Once earthly joy I craved, sought peace and rest;
Now Thee alone I seek, give what is best.
This all my prayer shall be: More love, O Christ to Thee;
More love to Thee, more love to Thee!

Let sorrow do its work, come grief or pain;
Sweet are Thy messengers, sweet their refrain,
When they can sing with me: More love, O Christ, to Thee;
More love to Thee, more love to Thee!

Then shall my latest breath whisper Thy praise;
This be the parting cry my heart shall raise;
This still its prayer shall be: More love, O Christ to Thee;
More love to Thee, more love to Thee!

"[24] Grace be with all them that love our Lord Jesus Christ in sincerity. Amen." Ephesians 6:24
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Newsweek on the Bible

Today one of my LJ friends posted the Newsweek essay attacking the Bible. I sent to my LJ friend a response to that essay in Newsweek by Dr. Mohler. I have been reading off and on today from a book titled, "We Believe in One God" Volume 1 Ancient Christian Doctrine Edited By Gerald L. Bray. I will quote from this excellent volume something goes along with how one comes to a true understanding of God's Word the holy Bible.

"The Secret Of True Wisdom. Clement Of Alexandria: The wise person who has been persuaded to obey the commandments will become wiser by his knowledge, and the intelligent person will acquire power. He will understand parables and obscure sayings, the oracles and enigmas of the wise. Those inspired by God and those who have been converted through them do not produce spurious words, nor do they trick people with their clever words, as the Sophists do. On the contrary, those who possess the Holy Spirit "search the deep things of God" (1 Cor 2:10) and thus grasp the secrets that are in the prophecies. It is forbidden to impart holy things to dogs, as long as they remain beasts. Those who are jealous and disturbed, and whose behavior is still pagan, should never be allowed to dip into the divine and clear stream of the living water. . . But the person who believes the Scriptures correctly hearts in them the voice of God, who gave them to us. STROMATEIS 2.2.." pg. 16,17

"[1] Therefore seeing we have this ministry, as we have received mercy, we faint not;
[2] But have renounced the hidden things of dishonesty, not walking in craftiness, nor handling the word of God deceitfully; but by manifestation of the truth commending ourselves to every man's conscience in the sight of God.
[3] But if our gospel be hid, it is hid to them that are lost:
[4] In whom the god of this world hath blinded the minds of them which believe not, lest the light of the glorious gospel of Christ, who is the image of God, should shine unto them.
[5] For we preach not ourselves, but Christ Jesus the Lord; and ourselves your servants for Jesus' sake.
[6] For God, who commanded the light to shine out of darkness, hath shined in our hearts, to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.
[7] But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellency of the power may be of God, and not of us.
[8] We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair;
[9] Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed;
[10] Always bearing about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our body.
[11] For we which live are alway delivered unto death for Jesus' sake, that the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our mortal flesh.
[12] So then death worketh in us, but life in you.
[13] We having the same spirit of faith, according as it is written, I believed, and therefore have I spoken; we also believe, and therefore speak;
[14] Knowing that he which raised up the Lord Jesus shall raise up us also by Jesus, and shall present us with you." 2 Corinth. 4:1-14

"[3] But if our gospel be hid, it is hid to them that are lost:
[4] In whom the god of this world hath blinded the minds of them which believe not, lest the light of the glorious gospel of Christ, who is the image of God, should shine unto them." 2 Corinth. 4:3,4
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books bought during the month of December 2014

December 2014

"Mariette In Ecstasy" a novel by Ron Hansen
"Gilead" a novel by Marilynne Robinson
"Sophie's Choice" a novel by William Styron
"A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius" a novel by Dave Eggers
"Small Island" a novel by Andrea Levy
"Antichrist: Two Thousand Years of Human Fascination With Evil" by Bernard McGinn
"Henrik Ibsen: A New Biography" by Robert Ferguson
"The Eye of the Storm" a novel by Patrick White
"Anil's Ghost" a novel by Michael Ondaatje
"Consequences" a novel by Penelope Lively
"Fanny: A Fiction" by Edmund White
"What Ever Happened To Modernism?" by Gabriel Josipovici
"Previous Convictions: A Journey Through The 1950's" memoir by Nora Sayre
"Cairo" by Andre Raymond [Translated by Willard Wood]
"Salvation Applied By The Spirit" Union with Christ" by Robert A. Peterson
"Cloud Atlas" a novel by David Mitchell
"The Victorian Underworld" British History by Donald Thomas
"The Sacco-Vanzetti Affair: America on Trial" American History by Moshik Temkin
"A Beautiful Mind: The Life of Mathematical Genius and Nobel Laureate John Nash" biography by Sylvia Nasar
"The Oxford Companion To The Mind" Edited By Richard L. Gregory
"The Kennedy Imprisonment: A Meditation On Power" by Garry Wills
"Jane's Fame: How Jane Austen Conquered The World" biography by Claire Harman
"The Great Wall Of China: From History to Myth" by Arthur Waldron
"The End Of Order: Versailles 1919" European history by Charles L. Mee, Jr.
"Ines Of My Soul" a novel by Isabel Allende [Translated from the Spanish by Margaret Sayers Peden]
"The Passion of Michel Foucault" by James Miller
"Country of Origin" a novel by E. du Perron [Translated by Francis Bulhof and Elizabeth Daverman]
"Revolution And The Word: The Rise of the Novel in America" by Cathy N. Davidson
"Mimesis: The Representation of Reality in Western Literature" by Erich Auerbach [Translated By Willard R. Trask]
"William Faulkner: Three Decades Of Criticism" Edited With An Introduction By Frederick J. Hoffman & Olga W. Vickery
"Paddy Clarke Ha Ha Ha" a novel by Roddy Doyle
"A Biography Of E. M. Forster" by Nicola Beauman
"The Pine Barrens" by John McPhee
"The Sacred Wood: Essays On Poetry And Criticism" by T. S. Eliot
"A Gate at the Stairs" a novel by Lorrie Moore
"Fire In The Blood" a novel by Irene Nemirovsky
"Smoke" a novel by Turgenev
"Chance" a novel by Joseph Conrad
"Jealousy & In The Labyrinth" two novels by Robbe-Grillet
"Oblomov" a novel by Ivan Goncharov
"S/Z An Essay" by Roland Barthes [Translated by Richard Miller]
"Tolstoy and the Novel" by John Bayley
"Animal Farm" a novel by George Orwell
"1984" a novel by George Orwell
"Man's Hope" a novel by Andre Malraux
"God Has Spoken: A History of Christian Theology" by Gerald Bray
"The Burgess Boys" a novel by Elizabeth Strout
"Explorers of the Nile: The Triumph and Tragedy of a Great Victorian Adventure" by Tim Jeal
"The Pickwick Papers" a novel by Charles Dickens
"Moral Reflections on the Book of Job" Volume 1 "Preface and Books 1-5" by Gregory the Great [Translated by Brian Kerns, OCSO]
"Hellhound On His Trail: The Stalking Of Martin Luther Jr. And The International Hunt For His Assassin" by Hampton Sides
"In A Father's Place: Stories" by Christopher Tilghman
"The American Transcendentalists: Their Prose and Poetry" Edited by Perry Miller
"Carpenter's Gothic" a novel by William Gaddis
"Charmed Circle: Gertrude Stein & Company" biography by James R. Mellow
"Image-Music-Text" essays by Roland Barthes [Translated by Stephen Heath]
"Call It Sleep" A Novel by Henry Roth
"The Master & Margarita" a novel by Mikhail Bulgakov [Translated by Mirra Ginsburg]
"Collected Short Stories" by Graham Greene
"St. Petersburg" a novel by Andrey Biely [Translated by John Cournos]
"Opus Posthumous: Poems, Plays, Prose" by Wallace Stevens Edited, With An Introduction By Samuel French Morse
"Love As Always, Kurt Vonnegut As I Knew Him" a memoir by Loree Rackstraw
"The Orientalist: Solving The Mystery Of A Strange And Dangerous Life" biography by Tom Reiss
"The Times of My Life and My Life with The Times" a memoir by Max Frankel
"The Gentle Barbarian: The Life And Work Of Turgenev" biography by V.S. Pritchett
"Out Stealing Horses" a novel by Per Petterson [Translated By Anne Born]
"John Marshall: Definer Of A Nation" biography by Jean Edward Smith
"De Sade: A Critical Biography" by Ronald Hayman
"Doubt: A History" by Jennifer Michael Hecht
"Report To Creco" a memoir by Nikos Kazantzakis
"Fear And Loathing In Las Vegas: A Savage Journey To The Heart Of The American Dream" by Hunter S. Thompson
"Becoming Jane Austin" a biography by Jon Spence
"The Twits" children's book by Roald Dahl Illustrated By Quentin Blake
"Wolf Hall" a novel by Hilary Mantel
"A Dead Hand: A Crime In Calcutta" a novel by Paul Theroux
"The Portable Jung" Edited by Joseph Campbell
"The Artist, the Philosopher, and the Warrior: Da Vinci, Machiavelli, And Borgia And The World They Shaped" by Paul Strathern
"The Most Dangerous Book: The Battle for James Joyce Ulysses" by Kevin Birmingham
"Language For God In Patristic Tradition: Wrestling With Biblical Anthropomorphism" by Mark Sheridan
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    Nux Vomica

Belief & Technique For Modern Prose by Jack Kerouac

1. Scribbled secret notebooks, and wild typewritten pages, for yr own joy
2. Submissive to everything, open, listening
3. Try never get drunk outside yr own house
4. Be in love with yr life
5. Something that you feel will find its own form
6. Be crazy dumbsaint of the mind
7. Blow as deep as you want to blow
8. Write what you want bottomless from bottom of the mind
9. The unspeakable visions of the individual
10. No time for poetry but exactly what is
11. Visionary tics shivering in the chest
12. In tranced fixation dreaming upon object before you
13. Remove literary, grammatical and syntactical inhibition
14. Like Proust be an old teahead of time
15. Telling the true story of the world in interior monolog
16. The jewel center of interest is the eye within the eye
17. Write in recollection and amazement for yourself
18. Work from pithy middle eye out, swimming in language sea
19. Accept loss forever
20. Believe in the holy contour of life
21. Struggle to sketch the flow that already exists intact in mind
22. Dont think of words when you stop but to see picture better
23. Keep track of every day the date emblazoned in yr morning
24. No fear or shame in the dignity of yr experience, language & knowledge
25. Write for the world to read and see yr exact pictures of it
26. Bookmovie is the movie in words, the visual American form
27. In praise of Character in the Bleak inhuman Loneliness
28. Composing wild, undisciplined, pure, coming in from under, crazier the better
29. You're a Genius all the time
30. Writer-Director of Earthly movies Sponsored & Angeled in Heaven

an old photo of me sitting next to the poet Allen Ginsberg Jackson Miss. 1986
a picture of Allen Ginsberg and I 1986 Jackson Miss.
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