October 31st, 2014

Beaumont Texas

It is 8:05 AM Friday in the flow of existence. It is a cold dark rainy morning. Soon the rain will turn to ice and snow.

Carol just left to take her car to a car repair shop. I was eating oatmeal when she left. Now I am writing some words in my three blogs. Existence is flowing by. A slow process of decay.

I got up this morning around 6:13 AM. I drank coffee I made yesterday. I messed with our main computer and then I wrote in my paper diary. I got out to read this morning a book I read last night titled, "Hidden But Now Revealed: A Biblical Theology of Mystery" by G. K. Beale & Benjamin L. Gladd.

I have no plans for the day ahead of me. I am not sure what Carol has planned to do today. She works a couple hours this evening. It is the last day of October 2014. Tomorrow will be November 1, 2014. No way of escape.

I was thinking this morning that one reason I never became a minister is that I could never be myself. I could never play the game of a professional minister in some conservative Presbyterian church. I am too weird. I never learned the social skills required to be a professional. I am an old freak. When I was young I thought the people of God will accept me because I loved the Lord Jesus and His Word, but I was seriously wrong. The American church world is all concerned with outward appearance not the inner man. I never looked professional but real. I could never stop being myself when I was in the American church world. When I was younger I could suppress my real self and try to play the religious games, but there came a point where I had enough. I did not want to play the game of being a Calvinist. I wanted to be just a plain old simple Christian and the church did not want anything of that. So I left the American church world and now wait out my days clinging to the Cross of Christ. I have to be myself as a man of God even if the American church world refuses to acknowledge my existence.

For years I had the vigor of youth to keep me going in the American church world. But there came a time when I acknowledged I was weak and broken. I came to accept the reality I can not be a member of the American religious world. I can not take the extreme pain it takes to go church on Sundays in my old age. The pain of going to church would crush me. So I wait out my days watching time flow by.

I always believed one does not force oneself into the spiritual office of Teaching Elder. It is the Lord who calls you to the office of Teaching Elder. I think the Lord knows I am a broken vessel and therefore has spared me from the crushing weight of being a professional minister in a professional world. I just want to love the Lord and be a light in a dark dead American world.

So goes by existence. No use crying over spilled milk. God's will be done on earth as in heaven.

Well I will close to drift and see what unfolds.

"[12] Wherefore Jesus also, that he might sanctify the people with his own blood, suffered without the gate.
[13] Let us go forth therefore unto him without the camp, bearing his reproach.
[14] For here have we no continuing city, but we seek one to come." Hebrews 13:12-14
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the skull crushing seed of the woman

Right now it is snowing outside. Finally winter has come to us in all its horror. Thank the Lord for a warm cave to hide in as the winter winds howl.

Right now it is 1:13 PM Friday afternoon in the ice flow. I am down in the lower level reading a book titled, "The Triumph of God: The Essence Of Paul's Thought" by J. Christiaan Beker.

This morning Carol and I went to a grocery store to buy a few food items. Once I did not buy myself any delicious food. I am living on celestial air these days. I never knew till lately how much food meant to me in my state of exile. I have come to realize I did enjoy eating food. Now I must learn to not enjoy eating food, but feeling empty. I do not like to eat raw food. I am not into eating nuts and apples all the time. I could never be a vegetarian.

I have been reading today from a book titled, "Hidden But Now Revealed: A Biblical Theology of Mystery" by G. K. Beale & Benjamin L. Gladd.

This afternoon Amazon delivered to our front door a book I had ordered last Summer titled, "Reading Backwards: Figural Christology and the Fourfold Gospel Witness" by Richard B. Hays. I have other books by Richard B. Hays in our library worth reading before the End of this present evil age-

"First Corinthians" [Interpretation: A Bible Commentary for Teaching and Preaching] by Richard B. Hays

"Echoes Of Scripture In The Letters Of Paul" by Richard B. Hays

"The Moral Vision of the New Testament: A Contemporary Introduction to New Testament Ethics" by Richard B. Hays

"The Faith of Jesus Christ: The Narrative Substructure of Galatians 3:1-4:11" by Richard B. Hays

"The Art of Reading Scripture" Edited by Ellen F. Davis & Richard B. Hays

I also have been reading lately a book titled, "Handbook on the New Testament Use of the Old Testament: Exegesis And Interpretation" by G. K. Beale.

Recently I have read these books that are good to have when studying and reading the Bible-

"The New Testament: A Historical and Theological Introduction" by Donald A. Hagner

"The King In His Beauty: A Biblical Theology of the Old and New Testaments" by Thomas R. Schreiner

"Kingdom through Covenant: A Biblical-Theological Understanding of the Covenants" by Peter J. Gentry & Stephen J. Wellum

"God Is Love: A Biblical And Systematic Theology" by Gerald Bray

Well I will close to drift and watch the snow fall. No way out.

"He answered and said to them, "Because it has been given to you to know the mysteries of the kingdom of heaven, but to them it has not been given" Matthew 13:11
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the apocalyptic hope

"Necessity. The expectation of the imminent parousia of Christ and the "day of the Lord" is for Paul not an apocalyptic oddity, but forms the climax of his theological fabric. The impending return of Christ is made necessary by the central significance that Paul assigns to the resurrection of Christ. Whenever Paul mentions the resurrection, he employs apocalyptic language. Resurrection terminology can be understood only in terms of the apocalyptic hope of the universal resurrection of the dead, an even that will coincide with the manifestation of God's full glory. Paul proclaims the necessary connection between the resurrection of Christ and the final resurrection of the dead. Accordingly, Paul presents Christ as "the first fruits of those who are asleep" (1 Cor. 15:23) or as "the firstborn among many brethren to come" (Rom. 8:29).

Thus the Christ-event in and of itself is not the final climax or a closure event. The expression "first fruits" signifies that time strains toward its actualization in the harvest of the final resurrection of the dead. The connection between the resurrection of Christ and God's final triumph is confirmed by Paul's view of the Spirit. As Christ is related to the general resurrection, so also is the Holy Spirit related to the coming glory of God. In fact, the Spirit, according to Paul, is the agent of the future glory of God in the present; it is the down payment (Rom. 8:23) or the guarantee (2 Cor. 1:22) of the end time and thus the signal of its coming and of God's imminent triumph. . ." pg.32 J. Christiaan Beker "The Triumph Of God: The Essence of Paul's Thought"

"[15] For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father.
[16] The Spirit itself beareth witness with our spirit, that we are the children of God:
[17] And if children, then heirs; heirs of God, and joint-heirs with Christ; if so be that we suffer with him, that we may be also glorified together.
[18] For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.
[19] For the earnest expectation of the creature waiteth for the manifestation of the sons of God.
[20] For the creature was made subject to vanity, not willingly, but by reason of him who hath subjected the same in hope,
[21] Because the creature itself also shall be delivered from the bondage of corruption into the glorious liberty of the children of God.
[22] For we know that the whole creation groaneth and travaileth in pain together until now.
[23] And not only they, but ourselves also, which have the firstfruits of the Spirit, even we ourselves groan within ourselves, waiting for the adoption, to wit, the redemption of our body."Romans 8:15-23
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