August 26th, 2014

to make the novel an aesthetic object rather than a communicative act

It is 9:12 AM Tuesday morning in the divine flow. It is a hot sunny morning here. What is the weather like where you live?

Carol just left to walk Rudy around the neighborhood. This morning Carol and I are going to visit thrift stores and go grocery shopping.

I do not remember much about last night. I feel sick lately inside. Something is not right with me. Maybe I do not feel well is because Carol is leaving me for 10 days. I do not like being absolutely alone. I try to tell myself that while Carol is gone I can fast and pray. I can prepare for death while my wife is visiting our son Caleb and his wife Emily. Emily is suppose to give birth to our second grandchild Sept. 3 Boston Mass. Carol is going to help out while Emily recovers from the birth experience. I still find it hard to imagine our oldest son Caleb being a Dad. But I suppose it is hard to imagine me being a Grandpa. Life keeps zooming by. One generation follows another generation.

This morning I have been doing the usual stuff and reading, "Flaubert: The Uses of Uncertainty" by Jonathan Culler.

Well I will close to feel sick with anxiety and dread.

  • Current Music
    J Mascis "Tied To A Star"

they suggest a weary sense of the burden of self

This morning after we went grocery shopping we stopped a thrift store so I could look at their used books. I found these used books to ADD to our library.

"Memories and Commentaries" by Igor Stravinsky & Robert Craft

"Franz Kafka: Parable and Paradox" by Heinz Politzer

"Three Short Novels" by Fyodor Dostoyevsky

"A Sport Of Nature" a novel by Nadine Gordimer

"The Novels Of Flaubert: A Study Of Themes And Techniques" by Victor Brombert

Well it is 11:57 AM late Tuesday morning. I need a cup of coffee so I will close. The Lord is good.

  • Current Music
    J Mascis "Tied To A Star"

he felt a permanent desire to transmute reality

It is 9:35 PM Tuesday night. Another day has passed into Michigan history books. Where did this day go? Tomorrow is a Wednesday. I got a call from a volunteer for the Herrick Public Library used books store asking if I could cover for her tomorrow at the book nook from 10 AM till 1 PM. I told her I would take her place since I have nothing going on tomorrow. Carol will be sleeping and I would be doing nothing tomorrow except read my books and write in my diary. I can always read my books at the library book nook and write down my thoughts when I get home in the afternoon.

Today I mainly read my books and wandered the house. I read from these books today.

"Flaubert" a biography by Benjamin F. Bart

"Flaubert: A Life" by Geoffrey Wall

"The Novels Of Flaubert: A Study Of Themes And Techniques" by Victor Brombert

"The Gates Of Horn: A Study Of Five French Realists" by Larry Levin

"Flaubert's Parrot" a novel by Julian Barnes

This evening I have been reading, "Flaubert: A Life" by Geoffrey Wall. I plan to go to bed soon. I did not sleep soundly last night. I had weird dreams all night.

Carol is at work right now and works tomorrow night, then is off for two weeks.

This afternoon Beth skyped and I saw Louisa for a few minutes. Carol was gone doing errands so did not get to see her little granddaughter today.

Well I will close to read and then face it.

Here something about Flaubert found in the novel, "Flaubert's Parrot" a novel by Julian Barnes.

"Date 1844. Shattering first attack of epilepsy; others are to follow. 'Each attack', Gustave writes later, 'was like a haemorrhage of the nervous system. . . It was like a snatching of the soul from the body, excruciating.' He is bled, given pills and influsions, put on a special diet, forbidden alcohol and tobacco; a regime of strict confinement and material care is necessary if he is not to claim his place at the cemetery. Without having entered the world. Gustave now retires from it. . ."
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    contemplative contemplative