August 13th, 2014


I do not remember if I mentioned that last Saturday I got my hair cut and my beard trimmed (which cost me $30.00 dollars!). After spending thirty dollars for a hair cut and a beard trimmed I am not planning to get another hair cut till October 2014. I could have bought for thirty dollars a ton of used books.

  • Current Music
    Damien Jurado "Saint Bartlett"

who studies himself in the void

It is 10:04 AM Wednesday morning in the divine flow. It is a sunny morning here by Lake Michigan. There is a severe water storage in the world. It is a blessing to have water to drink in the morning. Someday water could be sold for gold.

We have been up since 6:30 AM. Louisa woke up at 5 o'clock AM and talked to herself till almost 7 o'clock AM. This morning when I got up I made a pot of coffee and cooked breakfast for Beth and I.

Carol got home from work around 8:40 AM this morning and has gone to bed for the day.

This morning I have been reading "The Roads To Zion Mourn" by Hugh of Balma.

I have no plans for the day. I will read my books and write in my paper diary. I will mess with Lou. Existence keeps speeding by.

a picture of our granddaughter Louisa Mae
  • Current Music
    Gem Club "Breakers"

leaves the intellect behind

It is 11:28 AM Wednesday morning in the flow. Beth took Louisa for a car ride hoping she will fall asleep in the baby car seat. I have been wandering the house and reading Hugh of Balma "The Roads To Zion Mourn".

I will quote something I read this morning in "The Roads To Zion Mourn". I was thinking this morning that if I was a Professor of Reformed Theology at a Reformed theological seminary I would require every seminary student to read the book "Carthusian Spirituality: The Writings Of Hugh Of Balma And Guigo De Ponte" [The Classics Of Western Spirituality].

"Since every form of apprehending discussed earlier is outside the mystical upsurge, in that upsurge one should be unknowing, that is, one should pull back [rescindere] the eye of the intellect altogether, for in this upsurge the intellect always aims to apprehend that toward the affectio strives. Therefore the greatest adversary for this upsurge is the intellect's passionate clinging to the affectus, an adherence that must be peeled back [rescindi] with great effort. The causes of this are mentioned above because one apprehends by phantasms, or by description and delimitation. How the clinging intellect can be pulled back is stated in On Mystical Theology, where it says rise up unknowing. Uplifting is a vehement thrust of the affectus that leaves the intellect behind. The upsurge is never purely affective unless the eye of the intellect is completely withdrawn [rescindatur], something stated at the outset of On Mystical Theology.

99. When altogether ignorant by virtue of having vacated every cognition, the human spirit is united all the better because knowledge that is elevated above the mind knows nothing. This unknowing is the necessary condition for the most elevated form of apprehending, for all speculative cognition disappears in an upsurge that is unknown to the intellect, and speculative cognition must be left behind if one desires to proceed to knowledge above the mind. The more the intellect mixes herself into the affectus in this upsurge, the more impure is the upsurge; the more total the blindness of the intellective eye (which blindness only comes about by great toil and effort), so much more free and incomparably exalted is the upsurge of the affective eye's own extensions." pg. 149 Hugh of Balma

  • Current Mood
    contemplative contemplative

a search for contact with a transcendent good

It is 5:10 PM Wednesday evening. Existence goes by. Nothing says the same. Someday when I am in heaven it will be 5:10 PM someplace in the world. Very few people in the world know I am here writing these words. Someday all my words will only be known by God the All-Knowing One. We can not hide anything from God. God does not forget anything either.

I had a normal day reading my books and wandering the house. Off and on I held Louisa while Beth did something. Lou is a hand full! Right now Carol, Beth and Lou are out walking Rudy.

This afternoon I read these books when possible.

"Lost in the Forest" a novel by Sue Miller

"Inventing Paradise: The Greek Journal 1937-47" by Edmund Keeley

"Five Works" by Octavo Paz (Alternating Current, Conjunctions And Disjunctions, The Monkey Grammarian, Marcel Duchamp: Appearance Stripped Bare, and On Poets And Others)

Like I said it was a normal day. Carol just told me they are going grocery shopping.

Well I will close to read some poetry by Paz.

  • Current Music
    Yo La Tengo "Fade"