July 22nd, 2014

archaic man finds no meaning in himself apart from the cosmos he inhabits

It is 9:42 AM Tuesday morning in the flow of It. The eternal It is flowing inside It. It is a hot sunny morning here by Lake Michigan. We still have our central air system on so our cave is cool. One thing about closing up the house is that one smells the aroma of old dog and rug rot. I comfort myself by saying to myself we live like old hippies out in the woods of Northern California. We are too poor for wood floors and we could never get rid of our dog Rudy. In heaven we will smell the fruits of an everlasting Eden.

I got up this morning around 7:50 AM. When I got up I made a pot of coffee and did some wash. I had to put Rudy's bed in the wash because he had an accident during the night.

Carol got home from work around 8:25 AM and has gone to bed for the day.

I have been messing with our main computer this morning. I have not gotten around to writing in my paper diary yet.

Last night I watched television and went to bed around 11:05 PM. Now it is another day in the American Empire.

I am in one of those states where my brain won't function. I am stuffed and my brain refuses to let in any more stuff into it. So I am at a lost. My wife tells me I need a hobby. My hobby is writing Everything down or at least making an effort to write some of It down. I just have to wait out this state of mental collapse. In time everything will be open for business once again. What I do when my mind refuses to function is sit in contemplative silence.

When my birthday comes around (August 14) I find myself remembering my Past. The Lord has been good to us.

Well I will close to wait it out.

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God is the sole uncreated

I am now into the afternoon hours. I got out these books from my library on the Gospel of John to look at this afternoon.

"Johannie Discipleship as a Covenant Relationship" by Rekham M. Chennattu

"The Mission Of Jesus & The Disciples according to the Fourth Gospel" by Andreas J. Kostenberger

"John: Evangelist Of The Covenant People: The Narrative & Themes of the Fourth Gospel" by John W. Pryor

"The Anointed Community: The Holy Spirit in the Johannie Tradition" by Gary M. Burge

"Father, Son and Spirit: The Trinity and John's Gospel" by Andreas J. Kostenberger

"The God Of The Gospel Of John" by Marianne Meye Thompson

This morning I have been reading, "The Mission Of Jesus & The Disciples according to the Fourth Gospel" by Andreas J. Kostenberger. Lately I have been reading two other books by Kostenberger on The Gospel of John, "A Theology Of John's Gospel And Letters: The Word, the Christ, the Son of God" and "John" [Baker Exegetical Commentary On The New Testament].

What always mystifies when I look over my Christian past is that no one in the American Evangelical Movement wanted to use my spiritual gifts. Weird. Sometimes I wonder if somewhere in my Past I did something so bad that God determined that I was not worthy of the office of a Teaching Elder. At the same time as I look over my Past I have experienced a negative reaction to my personal being. I do not think people in general like me as a person. I think also people who are professing Christians do not like me. I might give off bad vibes. It is all a mystery to me why I am not in some evangelical church sharing the Good News to lost undone sinners.

"[1] I charge thee therefore before God, and the Lord Jesus Christ, who shall judge the quick and the dead at his appearing and his kingdom;
[2] Preach the word; be instant in season, out of season; reprove, rebuke, exhort with all longsuffering and doctrine.
[3] For the time will come when they will not endure sound doctrine; but after their own lusts shall they heap to themselves teachers, having itching ears;
[4] And they shall turn away their ears from the truth, and shall be turned unto fables.
[5] But watch thou in all things, endure afflictions, do the work of an evangelist, make full proof of thy ministry.
[6] For I am now ready to be offered, and the time of my departure is at hand.
[7] I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith:
[8] Henceforth there is laid up for me a crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous judge, shall give me at that day: and not to me only, but unto all them also that love his appearing." 2 Tim. 4:1-8

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