July 11th, 2014

sets himself against the soul-murdering teachers

It is 10:57 AM Friday late morning in the divine flow of Time. In time energy and matter flow into eternal oneness.

It is a sunny early Summer weather. It is 72 degrees today, a good day to mow our lawn. Last year around this time we were in the 80's. It has been a cold summer thus far. We are already coming to the end of July. We will soon be in the Autumn season and then it will be Winter again. I hope we have a mild winter this year, because last winter was a harsh one.

I have been reading this morning my commentary "John 1-12" [Reformation Commentary On Scripture].

Last night I read and went to bed around 11:15 PM. I was up this morning around 7 o'clock AM. The morning has gone by quietly.

Well not much else to report this morning. Carol goes back to work tonight. She is having lunch with friends this afternoon. Our son Josiah called last night to tell us they found an apartment to move into. Our son Josiah and his wife Hannah recently moved to the state of Washington to take up teaching positions at a private Christian High School.

I suppose I will close to read "John 1-12" (the Gospel of John chapters 1 through 12) and meditate.

"[1] In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.
[2] The same was in the beginning with God.
[3] All things were made by him; and without him was not any thing made that was made.
[4] In him was life; and the life was the light of men.
[5] And the light shineth in darkness; and the darkness comprehended it not.
[6] There was a man sent from God, whose name was John.
[7] The same came for a witness, to bear witness of the Light, that all men through him might believe.
[8] He was not that Light, but was sent to bear witness of that Light.
[9] That was the true Light, which lighteth every man that cometh into the world.
[10] He was in the world, and the world was made by him, and the world knew him not.
[11] He came unto his own, and his own received him not.
[12] But as many as received him, to them gave he power to become the sons of God, even to them that believe on his name:
[13] Which were born, not of blood, nor of the will of the flesh, nor of the will of man, but of God." John 1:1-13
  • Current Music
    Morrissey "World Peace Is None Of Your Business"


It is 5:09 PM Friday evening. As I was eating food for an evening meal. I actually do not sit down and eat a meal. I eat throughout the day small portions of food. Carol did not make a big meal yesterday afternoon for us to sit down and eat together. Carol and I do not often sit down and eat food together. Anyway as I was eating this evening I was trying to remember my personal history of eating food.

I do not think I became aware of food until I was 16 years old. I do not remember going hungry growing up. But I do not remember what we ate. I do not remember my mother cooking food for us to eat, but she must have cooked. (My mother was killed in a car wreck when I was 16 years old.) I think I became aware of food when I lived with my first foster family in Richmond California. In the past have mentioned here in LJ that I had a stomach ulcer growing up. I started getting sick with an ulcer when I was nine years old. I am no longer suffering from a stomach ulcer due to modern medications. I do not think I have been sick with a bad stomach going on 10 years now. For many years I could hardly eat anything without getting sick to my stomach. When I was young I was very skinny. Now I am over weight, but not super fat. I could lose 30 pounds easily to look somewhat normal.

Anyway my first foster family did not eat food, but food supplements. My first foster family consisted of a divorced woman with one teenage son. This mother and son were into eating raw vegetables and food supplements. They ate very little real food. So I basically was always hungry or sick to my stomach. My second foster family had basically the same diet as my first foster family. So I never really ate real food while in High School. I lived on air. I suppose when you are young food is not that important. If I did eat something it usually made me sick. I lived on bread and milk which did not upset my stomach.

I do not think I really started eating regularly until the last ten years. I could not keep food down for years. I would eat a meal, get sick to my stomach and throw up. I also hardly slept for years, because my stomach ulcer kept me awake during the night. I basically was miserable for years due to my bad stomach.

Three times I was in a hospital due to a bleeding ulcer before I met Carol in Bible College(1978). For years I could eat no spicy or rich food. If I did eat something spicy or rich I would immediately get sick and throw up.

There were times during my early 20's when I had no money for food. I had girlfriends who fed me when I was with them. I also had Christian friends who would buy me a meal. I mainly lived on cream of wheat and milk for many years. But there were times when there was no cream of wheat or milk so I silently suffered hunger. But at least I was not sick to my stomach while starving.

Now I can eat anything but I am not into eating food. But I am thankful my stomach ulcer is gone and I can sleep at night without stomach pain.

Carol is into food but I am not. Carol will ask me for example if I want anything at the Farmer's Market and I will answer No. Carol will buy all kinds of vegetables, but I will not eat them (maybe sometimes I will eat string-beans). When we go grocery shopping I will usually buy stuff like orange juice or bread. I am not into food. I basically eat out of habit. I am thankful for food and know we are richly blessed with a super abundance of food. But I still find eating not exciting.
  • Current Mood
    contemplative contemplative

discipleship is received as a gift from God

It is 7:54 PM Friday night, Carol just left for work. She told me she was not in the mood to go to work, but she went. I remember when I was working how I hated going to work in the morning. I still remember getting up at the crack of dawn to get ready for work feeling absolutely sick to my stomach because I hated my job. But that is now all in the past. I have not worked since June 21, 2007 (2006?). I recently applied for social security so I can honestly tell folks I am retired. I am thankful that I do not have to work. Carol enjoys her job as a professional nurse. I know she will miss nursing when she retires in four years.

There is nothing on TV worth watching this evening. I usually watch a couple of hours of TV during the evening hours. Most nights there is nothing on TV worth watching so I either sit in the dark contemplating my existence or read in my main study. I do listen to music sometimes since I can turn up the stereo when Carol is not home. For some unknown reason I am not in the mood for loud music lately. I spend a lot of time in a state of contemplative silence. Today I have spent the day read from these two books, "John 1-12" New Testament IV [Reformation Commentary On Scripture] Edited By Craig S. Farmer and "Johannine Discipleship as a Covenant Relationship" by Rekha M. Chennattu.

I did not go anywhere today. I mainly sat in our dining room reading my books and drinking coffee. I have to read my Christian books when I feel free to do so. There are times when I can not read my Christian books due to brain overload. My brain gets so stuffed with divine Truth that I have to give my mind a rest.

I thought I would share more about my history of eating food and suffering from a stomach ulcer, but now it seems old hat. I did not mention that when I was on staff at the Richmond Rescue Mission, Richmond California that for two years as was the Mission cook (the years 1974 & 1975). I cooked for over a hundred people three times a day when working as a Rescue Mission cook. I am sure I had helpers as a Mission cook. I also had days off as a Mission cook. But I rarely ate the food I cooked as a Mission cook, because I could eat almost nothing due to my stomach ulcer.

I also did not mention in the history of eating food that when I was a student at Mackinac Liberal Arts College I had a night job as a waiter for the college. I had to serve students their meals and also afterwards help wash dishes to help pay for my college tuition. I was a student at this college I think around the year 1972 or 1973. I have a weak memory when it comes to dates.

I think I left the Richmond Rescue Mission located in Richmond California around 1977. I left California to attend Reformed Bible College Grand Rapids Michigan I think around 1978 and got married the Spring of 1979 to Carol. Now I am not sure about this Time Line since like I said my memory is poor.

As I have said when my birthday rolls around I find myself reviewing my Life from birth August 14, 1952 till the present Now the Summer of 2014. Where I have come from and where I hope to be at the end of my days.

I became a disciple of Christ Jesus August 1970. I have been reading the Gospel of John going on 44 years. I studied the Gospel of John at Reformed Bible College August Institute 1979 grade A-. I studied the Gospels & Acts 1985 grade B+ while attending Reformed Theological Seminary Jackson Mississippi.

Reformed Bible College Grand Rapids Mich. 1978-1981

Reformed Theological Seminary Jackson Mississippi 1983-1986

We moved to Houston Texas after seminary 1986 to 1991 to do my minister internship at Covenant PCA. I think we moved here to Holland Michigan July 1991.

Well life has gone by and now it is another Summer in our lives. I will close to regroup.

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