April 12th, 2014

sought to interpret the divine will in some patterns in history

It is 9:04 AM Saturday morning. A cold gray morning here by Lake Michigan.

I leave for the library book nook soon. I should be home from the book nook around 1:10 PM today. Right now I want to go down in the basement and lay down in the cold damp darkness. I think I got up way too early this morning.

This morning I got up around 6:30 AM. I got up because I was having weird intense dreams. So I got up made a pot of coffee and then messed with our main computer. After messing with our main computer I wrote in my paper diary. Carol got up as I was writing in my diary. So existence keeps decaying.

I have been reading this morning from a book titled, "A Sunlit Absence: Silence, Awareness, and Contemplation" by Martin Laird.

Last night I read "The Acts Of The Apostle" [The Pillar New Testament Commentary] by David G. Peterson and watched television. I went to bed last night around 11 o'clock PM and now it is another day.

Well I suppose I will close since feel drained of energy.
  • Current Music
    Cloud Nothings "Here And Nowhere Else"

Jesse Winchester has died at 69

It is 3:53 PM Saturday afternoon. I just got up from a nap down in the lower level. I laid down around 2 o'clock PM and got up around 3:40 PM. When I came upstairs I noticed Carol had gone to bed. I messed with the computer and found out the singer songwriter Jesse Winchester died from throat cancer. I dug out my only CD by Jesse Winchester titled "Gentleman of Leisure". Years ago I was into the kind of music produced by singer songwriter Jesse Winchester. Now I am to extreme music like Thou "Heathen". Not saying I do not still like quiet music. I recently pre-ordered the new Wovenhand CD.

I had a normal time at the Herrick Public Library used bookstore. I left the house for the book nook around 9:45 PM and got home around 1 o'clock PM. The book nook was not busy today. I read when not helping people from these two books, "This Is My Beloved Son: The Transfiguration Of Christ" by Andreas Andreopoulos and "The Acts Of The Apostles" [The Pillar New Testament Commentary] by David G. Peterson. I brought home from the book nook one used book to add to our library, "Peace" a novel by Richard Bausch.

When I got home Carol was leaving to deliver a meal to a sick friend. I ate lunch and wrote in my paper diary. I have been reading from these two books since getting home from the book nook, "A Sunlit Absence: Silence, Awareness, and Contemplation" by Martin Laird and "The Art of Prayer: An Orthodox Anthology" compiled by Igumen Chariton of Valamo.

So my short life speeds by. Now is the time to love because who knows what tomorrow will bring.

Well I will close to take my daily hot shower. Time to shut down and go into the darkness.

Jesse Winchester has died at 69
  • Current Music
    Jesse Winchester "Gentleman of Leisure"

do not try to measure your progress

It is 5:34 PM Saturday evening in the flow of the Plan of God. There is the first day of Creation (Gensis. 1) and the first day of the New Creation (Rev. 21:1). We are living in the End Times. Now is the day of salvation. Now is the time to get ready to meet the Lord Jesus Christ as He comes in divine glory to gather His elect.

I am down in the lower level of our house having a quiet time with my library. I have been mainly reading this afternoon from these two books, "A Sunlit Absence: Silence, Awareness, and Contemplation" by Martin Laird and "The Art of Prayer: An Orthodox Anthology" compiled by Igumen Chariton of Valamo.

I like to quote right now from the book "The Art of Prayer" something that has been going around and around in my mind lately.

"Do not try to measure your progress

Warmth of heart, about which you write, is a good condition, which should be guarded and maintained. When it weakens, you must continue to kindle it, gathering yourself together inwardly with all your strength and calling upon God. To prevent it leaving you, you must avoid distraction of thought and impressions coming through the senses, which are incompatible with this state. Avoid the attachment of your heart to anything visible, or the absorption of your attention by any worldly care. Let your attention toward God be unwavering, and the tautness of your body unslackened, like a bowstring, or a soldier on parade. But the most important thing is to pray to God and ask Him to prolong this mercy of warmth in the heart.

When the query arises 'Is this it?', make it your rule once and for all mercilessly to drive away all such questions as soon as they appear. The originate from the enemy. If you linger over this question the enemy will pronounce the decision without delay, 'Oh yes, certainly it is-you have done very well!' From then on you stand on stilts and begin to harbour illusions about yourself and to think that others are good for nothing. Grace will vanish: but the enemy will make you think that grace is still with you. This will mean that you think you possess something, when really you have nothing at all. The Holy Fathers wrote, 'Do not measure yourself.' If you think you can decide any question about your progress, it means that you are beginning to measure yourself to see how much you have grown. Please avoid this as you would avoid fire." pg. 158, 159 Theophan the Recluse

glorycloud written on August 14, 2003
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