April 7th, 2014

saints who experienced the continuous Transfiguration of Christ

It is 8:38 AM Monday morning in the divine flow. I am down in the lower level writing on my old lap top. I do not remember why I came down here. I feel absolutely drained of all energy this morning. Lately I have these spells where I feel I have no strength to do anything but lay down. I hope I am not sick or dying. I had this same feeling last night. I think I am getting enough rest. Weird. If I continue to feel this way I will make an appointment to see my doctor. Of course I could just be depressed and nothing wrong with me. But I have never felt this exhausted before even when I assumed I was depressed. I am not losing weight or lost of appetite. Yesterday I walked with Carol around the Outdoor Discovery Nature Center. Weird.

I got up this morning around 6:15 AM. I made a pot of coffee and then messed with our main computer. Next I cooked my wife and I breakfast and then wrote in my diary. Next I cleaned the kitchen and fed the birds. Now I am down in the lower level feeling exhausted. Existence keeps speeding by!

Last night I wandered the house and read my books. Carol got home from church around 7:45 PM. When she got home I was sitting in our dining room sitting in silence before God.

We went to bed around 10:30 PM last night.


I have these two books next to me as I seek to write words this morning.

"A Sunlit Absence: Silence, Awareness, and Contemplation" by Martin Laird

"This Is My Beloved Son: The Transfiguration Of Christ" by Andreas Andreopoulos

I have nothing to do today but feel wasted. Carol works the next three nights. Groan.

Well I will close to face what comes next.
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    contemplative contemplative

the transfiguration of soul and body by divine fire

Last night my wife and I had a discussion on the life of prayer. I told my wife she should read "The Art Of Prayer: An Orthodox Anthology" Compiled by Igumen Charition Of Valamo. What Christians should aim for is a greater awareness of our union with God in Christ Jesus. The apostle Paul wrote in his letter to the Galatians, "For you are all sons of God through faith in Christ Jesus. For as many of you as were baptized into Christ have put on Christ" Gal. 3:26,27.

I will quote from the book, "The Art Of Prayer".

"I do not say that all is accomplished at once as soon as we attain the state of conscious communion with God. This is only the foundation laid for the next stage, for a new chapter in our Christian life. From now on the transfiguration or spiritualization of soul and body will begin as we share increasingly in the spirit of life that is in Jesus Christ. Having mastered himself, man will begin to instil into himself all that is true, holy, and pure, and to drive out all that is false, sinful, and corporeal. Until now he made strenuous efforts to do this, but was robbed of the fruits of his efforts every moment of the day; so that whatever he succeeded in achieving was at once all but destroyed. Now the case is different. He stands firmly on his feet, not yielding at all before difficulties, and conducts himself according to the aim of his life.

According to St. Barsanouphios, when we receive in our heart the fire which the Lord came to send on earth (Lk. 12:49), all our human faculties begin to burn within. When by long friction fire is ignited and logs begin to burn with it, the logs thus kindled will crackle and smoke until they are properly alight. But when they are properly alight they appear to be permeated with fire, and produce a pleasing light and warmth without smoke and crackling. So it happens within men. They receive the fire and begin to burn-and how much smoke and crackling there is only those who have experienced it can know. But when the fire is properly alight the smoke and crackling cease, and within reigns only light. This condition is a state of purity; the way to it is long, but the Lord is most merciful and all powerful. Thus it is clear that when a man has received the fire of conscious communion with God, what lies before him is not peace but great labor. But from this point onwards he will find the labor sweet and full of fruit, whereas before the work was bitter and bore little fruit or none." pg. 156 Theophan the Recluse
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    contemplative contemplative


It is 2:59 PM Monday afternoon. It has been a quiet day thus far for me. Carol is sleeping because she works tonight. I have been wandering the house and reading a used book I found this morning at a thrift store titled, "Wild Mind: Living The Writer's Life" by Natalie Goldberg. I also found these two used books while visiting thrift stores this morning.

"The Ice Storm" a novel by Rick Moody

"Almost" a novel by Elizabeth Benedict

I did do a little yard work this afternoon. Well I will close to drift. No way out.

April 6, 2014




  • Current Music
    Nothing "Guilty of Everything"