March 14th, 2014

they maybe morally good but not spiritual good until God gives them saving grace

It is 1:02 PM Friday afternoon here by Lake Michigan. Existence keeps flowing by. Thus far we have had a normal day (notice I did not use I but we).

I got up this morning around 7:15 AM. I got up made a pot of coffee and then messed with our main computer (right now I am sitting in our dining room writing on my new lap top computer because Carol is using our main computer located in our living room).

This morning we went out for breakfast and then went grocery shopping. I am cutting back on food intake because I want to lose some weight. I am cutting back on bread products and juices. Since I did not buy any bread products this morning I did not get any luncheon meat. Carol asked me what I plan to eat since I did not buy myself any food. I told her I plan to live on air. I do not eat much any way so I won't miss bread, juice or luncheon meat. I eat very little food. I am overweight because I do not exercise. If I walked or ran five miles a day in six months I would be skinny as a rail.

We were back from grocery shopping around 11:35 AM. Since being home I have done very little. This morning I read for morning worship from these books-

"John Ruusbroec The Spiritual Espousals And Other Works" [The Classics Of Western Spirituality]

"Acts" New Testament VI Reformation Commentary On Scripture Edited By Esther Chung-Kim & Todd R. Hains

Last night I read "Five Skies" a novel by Ron Carlson and watched TV. We went to bed around 11:30 PM. Now it is another day of existence.

I have no plans this afternoon. Carol and I are waiting to find out the birth of our first grandchild. We are waiting to find out if our daughter Beth has gone into labor.

Well I will close to wait. There is no way out.
  • Current Music
    Elbow "The Take Off And Landing Of Everything"

sink into his nothingness

It is now in the heavenly flow 3:47 PM Friday afternoon. Next Friday I will be alone. I hate being alone. I need a wife by my side as I slowly head for the grave. I want someone to be around to throw flowers on my grave. I just took my daily hot shower after taking a short nap. I laid down around 1:55 PM and now it is going on 4 o'clock PM. Carol did not wake me up to tell me Beth and Andy had their baby. Maybe Beth is still in labor, Carol told me a woman having her first child could be in labor up to 14 hours. So we wait for the scream of life to be heard.

I do not know what came in the mail this afternoon. I am not expecting anything to come in the mail for me this week.

I have been reading today when possible "The Spiritual Espousals" by John Ruusbroec (1293-1381).

Well I will close to go upstairs to face it. There is no way of escape.

"Now understand well what follows: The measureless illumination of God which, together with his incomprehensible resplendence, is a cause of all gifts and virtues is the same incomprehensible light which transforms and pervades our spirit's inclination toward blissful enjoyment. It does this in a way which is devoid of all particular form, since it occurs in incomprehensible light. In this light the spirit immerses itself in a rest of pure bliss, for this rest is modeless and fathomless. It cannot be known except through itself, for if we could know and comprehend it by ourselves it would lapse into some particular form or measure and would then not be able to satisfy us; instead, this rest would become an eternal state of restlessness. For this reason the simple, loving inclination of our spirit, immersed in rest, produces in us a blissful love, and such love is fathomless. Here, God's deep calls to deep (cf. Ps. 42:8), that is, calls to all who are united with the Spirit of God in blissful love. This call is an overflow of essential resplendence, and this essential resplendence, enveloping us in fathomless love, makes us lose ourselves and flow forth into the wild darkness of the Godhead. Thus united-one with the Spirit of God, without intermediary-we are able to meet God with God and endlessly possess our eternal blessedness with him and in him. This most interior way of life is practiced in three manners or modes." pg. 132 "The Spiritual Espousals" by John Ruusbroec
  • Current Mood
    contemplative contemplative