March 12th, 2014

theology is the guardian of the true church

It is 7:42 AM Wednesday morning. It snowed during the night here in West Michigan. It is depressing to see snow once again on the ground. There is snow everywhere and I am sick of seeing mountains of snow. Due to the recent warm weather the snow is slowly melting. We will have massive flooding not only here but throughout America as the snow melts. There is just one trouble after another. We are in the Last Days. The earth is groaning under the weight of man's sin.

I got up this morning around 7:05 AM. I made a pot of coffee and messed with our main computer. I am waiting for Carol to call me so as to pick her up when she is finished working. I do not forward to my wife leaving next week for Arizona. I wish Carol was not working and never had to go anywhere. I would like Carol to be with me all the time.

Yesterday was a super quiet for me. I did not go any where. I did not do anything but watch the birds, read, and write in my paper diary. When I feel anxious I write. I am always feel anxious. Right now I am sick with anxiety because Carol is leaving me next week and will be gone till April. Maybe I will never see Carol again. Maybe I will die alone here in this house. Maybe while Carol is gone someone will kill her. I do not want to die alone. The other day there was a news story about a woman who was found dead in her car in her garage. She been dead since 2006 and no one missed her not even her own sister. That woman had died in her car in 2006 and no one found her till 2014. Now that is sad.

Last night I read, "Proust At The Majestic: The Last Days Of The Author Whose Book Changed Paris" by Richard Davenport-Hines and watched television. I went to bed around 11:30 PM last night. Now it is another day to work out my salvation with fear and trembling.

I got out to read this morning my New King James Bible and my new Reformation Commentary on The Acts of the Apostles. Existence keeps speeding by. There is no way of escape.
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    contemplative contemplative

Carolina Wren

Yesterday as I was watching the birds at our bird feeder from our kitchen window I spotted a Carolina Wren. I quickly took some pictures before he flew off. During the Spring season we see birds we do not normally see by our bird feeder.

Carolina Wren

Carolina Wren
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    contemplative contemplative

he is standing before the throne of the Holy Trinity

"Fortitude

God will then give him the fourth gift, which is the spirit of fortitude. He can thereby master pleasure and pain, gain and loss, hope and concern about earthly matters, and all kinds of obstacles and multiplicity. In this way a person becomes free and detached from all creatures. When a person is devoid of images, he is master of himself and becomes easily and effortlessly united in his being and interiorly fervent. Without obstacle, he turns freely to God with interior devotion, lofty desire, thanksgiving, praise, and a pure intention. He thereby finds savor in all his works and in his entire life, both interior and exterior, for he is standing before the throne of the Holy Trinity. He often receives interior consolation and sweetness from God, for whoever serves at such a table with thanksgiving, praise, and interior reverence often drinks of the wine and partakes of the food that is left over and of the scraps that fall from the Master's table (cf. Mt. 15:27). Because of his pure intention, he constantly enjoys interior peace.

If he wishes to remain standing fast before God with thanksgiving, praise, and an upright intention, then the spirit of fortitude will be doubled within him. He will then descend neither bodily inclinations nor toward the desire for consolation, sweetness, rest, peace of heart, or any of God's gifts. Rather, he will forgo all gifts and all consolation for the sake of finding the one whom he loves.

Accordingly, whoever leaves behind and overcomes restlessness of heart and the things of this world is strong, while whoever forgoes and rises above all consolation and heavenly gifts is doubly strong. In this way such a person transcends all creatures and powerfully and freely gains possession of himself by means of the gift of spiritual fortitude." pg. 124 "The Spiritual Espousals" by John Ruusbroec
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    contemplative contemplative

Cooper's Hawk

I was in the kitchen getting myself a fresh of cup of coffee and spotted our Cooper's Hawk in the bush by our bird feeder. I only got one picture of him before he flew away.

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    The Field "Cupid's Head"