February 8th, 2014

a habitual remembrance of God

It is 4:40 PM Saturday evening here in ice land. It has been a super long day for me. Right now I feel absolutely wasted! I need to feel empty and then after feeling empty go to bed. I hate laying down on a full stomach.

I got up this morning around 7 o'clock AM. My wife was already up when I got up. She was in the kitchen making chex mix for friend who has cancer.

This morning I volunteer at the local library used bookstore from 10 AM till 1 PM. The book nook was not busy so I read my books and wandered the store.

When I got home from the library book nook Carol and I went downtown to have lunch with her younger brother and his wife. So has gone by the day.

Last night I watched television and read "Pages From A Cold Island" autobiographical novel by Frederick Exley. Carol and I went to bed around 10 o'clock PM last night.

Raum "Event of Your Leaving"

At the library book nook I read "A Fanatic Heart: Selected Stories of Edna O'Brien" and "Pages From A Cold Island" by Frederick Exley. I brought home from the book nook to add to our library a novel by Meg Wolitzer titled, "The Interestings".

a review of the novel "The Interestings" by Meg Wolitzer

Well I suppose I will close to read some more of Richard Baxter's treatise "The Divine Life" found in Volume 3 of "Baxter's Practical Works". Interesting reading the Christian spirituality of men like St. John of the Cross, Richard Baxter and Donald G. Bloesch.

I wonder what the apostle Paul would think after reading the writings of St. John of the Cross, Richard Baxter and Donald G. Bloesch.

Right now I am feeling wasted because I ate too much rich food this afternoon. I plan to rest my stomach this evening. I plan to drink a lot of water and just lay off heavy food for a day.

Well back to reading Richard Baxter. I might lay down here in the lower level till I begin to feel human again. I remember last night having one of those dreams where I can't get to where I want to go. I am stuck and I can't get to where I want to be.
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most gracious and loving Father

"II. And now as you see how God is our benefactor, or most gracious and loving Father, let us next see what this must work on us.

And 1. Goodness and bounty should shame men from their sin, and lead them to repentance, Rom. 2:4,5. Love is not to be abused and requited with unkindness and provocation. He that can turn grace into wantonness, and do evil because grace hath abounded, or that it may abound, shall be forged to confess that his damnation is just. He that will not hate his sin, when he seeth such exceeding benefits, plead against it, and upbraid the sinner with ingratitude, is like to die a double death, and shall have no more sacrifice for sin.

2. The fatherly love and benefits of God, do call for our best returns of love. The benefits of creation oblige all to love him with all their heart, and soul, and might: much more the benefits of redemption, and especially (as applied by sanctifying grace to them that shall be heirs of life) it obligeth them by multiplied strongest obligations: the worst are obliged to as much love of God as the best (for none can be obliged to more than to love him with all their heart, &c.); but they are not so as much obliged to that love. We have new and special obligations; and therefore must return a hearty love, or we are doubly guilty. Mercies are love's messengers, sent from heaven to win up our hearts to love again, and entice us thither. All mercies therefore should be used to this end. That mercy that doth not increase, or excite and help, our love, is abused and lost, as seed that is buried when it is sowed, and never more appeareth. . ." Richard Baxter pg. 803 'The Divine Life' from Volume 3 "Baxter's Practical Works"
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